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8614390533871937068 date: Wednesday, November 25, 2009 time: 11:32 PM comments: 0 I don't know how much longer I can hold out, with a serious lack of sleep and rest.
Out everyday in school, to run some errands, or work. Homework is piling up, and i got no time to do them. I just bathe eat and sleep once i reach home and a new day starts with just a few hours of sleep everyday. My research is not completely done yet and I feel that I have not done anything for ray's project when everyone is working really hard. I feel really bad towards my group. Met a great group of commonwealthians during the vox camp and another during the arts biz camp. yay.   |
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678836381317720340 date: Tuesday, November 17, 2009 time: 9:21 PM comments: 0 My only day at home is gone toooooooooooo. =((((
saturday need to go sch for parents seminar... bleahh. okay. for the cca points, i'll do it. looking forward to dialogue in the dark! |
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1979116179396879821 date: Monday, November 16, 2009 time: 12:12 AM comments: 0 it has been long since i blogged. and since serene is complaining, i am going to blog in english.
school has been super busy, going out every single day. mondays to saturdays to school and sundays to run errands. =( have not rested at home for a single day since school reopened. stupid sch. projects are becoming more and more demanding. everything is getting more difficult. and I can't focus in class. I think I am too tired. I dunno how my results will turn out this sem. probably super bad. I have no idea what the teachers are teaching up till now. esp translation and ray's as usual. lol. angel's toooo. I think i am dyinggg. luckily all are not examinable cept for ray's. yay. the long awaiting e-learning week is here. but, I am more busy then usual. look at my schedule and do not jio me out. I don't even know if i can go for prom. =( 16: Popular + OVB + Art Biz meeting 17: Vox 18: Red camp + tuition 19: probably out to sing + steamboat 20: norman + louis + DID 21: HOME 22: tuition 23: Vox + Prom 24: Vox 25: Art Biz 26: Art Biz 27-29: Ray Project only full day at home. bleahhhh. everyday is a full day out. from 8 to 6 if not 9. I think i am going to die of exhaustion. okay. but my cca points heheh, is going to increase by a lot a lot. and and on top of all this, I need to finish a newsletter and emailer and the name thing. try very hard to do something for OVB finish a cover letter and resume do all the e learning activities online which i wonder how since i'll be out everyday. finish ray's project interview thingy entertain super last minute request from the prom ppl which is really getting on my nerves. which means i don't get to do any crafts. =(( i don't even have time to read books nowadays. =.= so please stop getting me to do last minute things. as you can see, i don't even have enough time to sleep. and please do not try to talk to me unless you've got something to say. else bug off. i don't have time to entertain you. and i am falling sick soon. --------------------------------------------------------------- on another note, [i know this is a bit late but...] Joanna is the first international idol! hehehe. read the article here and watch the video! http://ourvoicebox.sg/posts/internationalidol_ourfootprint_anna_13112009_ovb  and yes, my newsletter is super ugly and i've got no idea what to do for the emailer. *bang wall bang wall* give me some inspiration!! |
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7796753600403702268 date: Sunday, November 01, 2009 time: 1:59 AM comments: 0 虽然听起来有点变态，不过半夜做面膜的感觉真的很爽～ 这学期的老师也很严厉。不能用电脑，会死呃。不过想必大家都心知肚明是谁告诉他们我们上课会用电脑吧。不过以前的T01很少有人用啊。 目前排行榜： 1：web design application 我的最爱。 2：radio production 我爱上了剪辑。看得出我比较喜欢动手多过用脑吧。 3：media culture 他的课的讨论是我的最爱。哈哈。因为我还满喜欢shoot他的。而且也比较熟。 4：news feature 还好不是shadow教的。有实力就是有实力。随便讲两句我都会哇。哪像那棵树啊。 5：written comm 我想就不用多说了吧。英文。而且老师好像有一点过渡热情。 6：translation 其实我还蛮期待的。不过那棵树真的是cmi。最想pon的就是她的课。 其实如果前4名的课排在拜日我想我都甘愿去咯。 最近radio production常常要录自己的声音。老实说，我并不是讨厌自己的声音，我觉得没有很难听啊，当然也不是很好听。不过听自己的声音就是很奇怪。。。我想我们都该学会爱上自己的声音才不会每次听录音的时候都那么痛苦吧。我把录音机借回家了。明天要好好的玩！audacity我来了！ 我以前真的很讨厌dreamweaver。不过现在觉得还蛮容易用的。哈哈。如果有时间的话，blogskin又要该咯！ 我工作的事父母都不懂哦。能瞒多久就瞒多久。不然零用钱要被扣了啦。 |
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5278739007193114212 date: Sunday, October 25, 2009 time: 2:08 AM comments: 0 明天工作，希望一切顺利，不要在她面前情绪失控，还是哭出来什么的。
千万不要。 |
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297346720486857201 date: time: 1:59 AM comments: 0 |
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3758351526937740057 date: time: 1:28 AM comments: 0
唯一一晚不用那么早睡。 我，渐渐想通了。我相信是因为还没适应换班这东西吧。天啊。没想到对我的伤害有那么大。我当初只是想说很可惜T01就这样分开了，没想到我的心情会有那么大的变化。看到那么多人对我叫我开心点，我才发觉其实关心我的人一直都在，只是我以为他们都不在了。 我发现，是我把自己封闭起来，不让任何人靠近。可能是中学时期造成的创伤吧，害怕了，所以不再跟任何人诉说心事。我觉得最容易跟玮玮开口，因为她有时也会跟我说她的心事，所以当我跟她说的时候，她也会听。以前，都没人会跟我说他们的心事啊。不是我不听，是他们从不跟我说。当我跟他们说时，他们就拿几句话来敷衍我。真的好难受。但也不能怪他们。我从来都没听你说过你的心事，你又会有什么理由来听我说呢。我想我的心态是这样的。 我讨厌被敷衍的感觉。甚至可以说是害怕这种感觉。 有时当周围的人试图关心我时，我会怀疑。怀疑是真的还是假的。是因为做朋友的义务就是要关心朋友。如果没关心那就是自私／不好的朋友。我知道这是一种抗拒／封闭自己的行为。我知道这对真正关心我的朋友很不公平。我想说声对不起。我会慢慢接受你们的关心。我会慢慢相信你们是真的关心我的。 我不知道为什么，我越来越不懂得跟别人说话。我怕这是一种自我封闭的现象。我觉得我有双从性格。我知道我在自我封闭，我不喜欢。不过我不知道要怎么打垮心里的那道墙。我觉得自己变得很可怕。不再是我所认识的嘉敏。 自那天起，我每天都在哭。现在也在哭。我不知道为什么。 我不想变成外星人。 |
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8186449473939032413 date: Friday, October 23, 2009 time: 6:06 PM comments: 0 今天又在学校哭了。不知为什么，上了理工学院，好像变得感性许多，常常在学校崩溃。之前是因为太多功课，压力太大。 不过今天我不知道为什么突然间，我整个人沉默了，然后变得很生气。最后真的压抑不住就跑到厕所哭了。直到现在，我不知道真正的原因。 或许，再也没人跟我说话了 或许，老师们都非常严格 或许，玮玮和绣婷都不在了 或许，我还没适应这个班级，大家都玩在一起，只有我一个人站在旁边静静看。 或许，我发现没人了解我 或许，没人愿意听我说话 或许，因为有很多手上的事情都还没做完 或许，我发现了一些残酷的真相 或许，身旁的人都很自私 或许，我担心太多了 或许，这学期比上学期可怕多了 或许，月经快来了 或许，我变胖了，所以正在伤心 我觉得我自己很奇怪。疯了疯了。现在只想躲在家里对着电脑和电视，不想跟任何人说话。 |
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3325887949222586383 date: Tuesday, October 20, 2009 time: 6:17 PM comments: 0 ＊发花痴中＊ 好帅哦！帅呆了。哈哈哈。＊流口水＊ 我开始觉得我们这班还满幸运的嘛。
Sabo-ed by ray to be the class rep. the conversation went like this:
this morning's lecture, i arrived early and was the only class rep, so i became the module rep for translation. =.= and now i am also the rep for written comm. lol. wednesday is going to be a happy day for the rest of the sem. lol. the translation teacher doesn't have very good english. she said please supervision, when it's suppose to be please supervise. across is pronounced as cross. and i heard evening when it's suppose to be e-learning. OMG. i predict that this module should be easy due to the standards of the teacher. lol. i somehow think she will become like the one who failed last sem. looking forward to web design. not so much for the person okayyyyy. it's for the content. lol. plus, he's number 4.... |
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670283133020891208 date: Sunday, October 18, 2009 time: 11:24 PM comments: 0  |
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1984953417512848454 date: time: 12:44 AM comments: 0 I earned my first sum monehh this month! hahas. okay. it's a mere 18 dollars which i spent it all already. i should really stop visiting kino and pop. cannot keep my hands off books. and i am saving another 60 dollars to get that doraemon comic set. saving perhaps another 50 to get more beads. bleah. money goneeee.
john little has this giraffe soft toy that is big enough to hug and reasonably cheap. only 14 dollarssss. i want it!!!! but i haven got a good look at it yet. hahas. i don't really hug soft toy but it's a giraffe! i think if i get a tweety or doraemon i will hug it too. but my current tweety is tooo small to hugg. sch starts tml. yay! but my tummy has been baddd. keep shitingg. excited to see number 1 again. hahahas. so not looking forward to cca. thinking of joining choir instead. work starts on tues! hopefully i can handle it. hehes. saturday's gone. but whatever. as long as there's moneh i am fine. hehe. saturday's lesson better be good/interesting/impt enough to make me go back. if not i think i will keep ponning sch on saturdayy. hahas. yay! i think i am all ready for schh. got to adjust my bio clock. i've been sleeping at 3 everyday. like what song hui say, i do not yawn too until 3am. hahas. i am going to sleep at 11 and wake up at 7 everyday. this is the last day i am sleeping soooo late. and i think i wanna pon monday's cca. since it's only the first day of school. |
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8860411487251440811 date: Wednesday, October 14, 2009 time: 1:05 AM comments: 0 我的钱，
花光啦！ 惨了惨了。真的是惨了。都还没开学，钱就花光了。要拿什么去吃饭啊。嗨。。。生日那天大买特买。刚好又碰到chalet。这个礼拜四和星期六，怎么办呢？我现在只靠我多年来的积蓄存活。没吃的话，我可是会死掉的。bleah。 欠我钱的人，拜托拜托尽快还我好吗？ －－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－ 满怀期待的等着开学的第一天。不但不用烦恼要穿什么衣服，还能看看新老师。最不值得期待的就是新班。对不起啦。我真的不是很喜欢我的班。不过，在任何一班都不好啦。 T01 chalet，只有9个人到。不过，我们还是玩得很开心。我一直以来都以为我们班只有23个人。终于在打桌球的时候，他们告诉我有27个人。哈哈。真的不知道该怎么说才好。那晚，我只记得一到了九点，我都不理身旁的人。眼里只存在着电视。应该是到了大概12点吧，我才开始跟大家说话。 那晚的小强也实在太多了吧。而且现场没有一个人是不怕的哦。只有欣盈一个，不过重点是她没有过夜。我好像过了九点就再也没有踏出门一步了。 －－－－－－－－－－－－－－－ 前几个礼拜是和蜜蜂大作战，他在我房里飞来飞去，吓得我都不敢关灯上床睡觉。 然后再隔几天就是在chalet里对抗小强。 前几天，我在厕所和壁虎玩对看游戏。至少有15分钟吧。他就在门把爬来爬去。我的手根本没那个勇气去开门嘛。。。 要知道我最怕的东西就是昆虫。虽然壁虎不是，不过他软软的。看了都怕。 |
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8213138628816223586 date: Saturday, October 10, 2009 time: 12:55 AM comments: 0
我发现，最近的我，常常这个样子。我变得很少开口说话。不知是没共同话题、不想说话、还是什么其它原因。我变得更像一个聆听者了。其实我觉得做聆听者比演说者来得更好。说话不能让你学到什么。反而，聆听能让你吸收、反思、分析、然后再做回应。这句话，很熟吧。可能当我知道聆听者的好处后，就希望自己变成一个聆听者，而且我觉得我有做得比之前好。 现在，说话常常让我觉得在跟别人打架，斗嘴。可能身边的人都太乐于分享吧。我就在一旁静静的听着就行了。说这么多，还不是饶来饶去。埋怨这么多，也没什么用。倒不如不说话。 不过，我害怕我会越来越不喜欢说话、不理会别人说的话，最后变成一个沉默的人。希望这一天不会到来。 |
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4047321306215550432 date: Thursday, October 08, 2009 time: 12:41 AM comments: 0 bye world, going off for chalet and straight to camp afterwards.
would be back on sunday but i guess i'll sleep in till monday. going to miss my bed and the ac, although the chalet and loft have them tooooo. but nothing is more comfortable then my own home. and goodbye my mac. gonna miss you so muchhhhh. |
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8779124812739995983 date: Monday, October 05, 2009 time: 11:15 PM comments: 0 OMG!!! I left a finished piece of 3d beaded rocking horse in the library book!!!! it's now in the library! took me a few days to finish it since 3d beading is not my 强项。double the heart pain.
>.< i was sleeping luh, then my parents came to ask if i had any books that i wanna return. i passed them a few books, and didn't bother to check if there's anything inside. apparently i was quite irritated and just wanted to get back to sleep quickly. bam okay, actually i am not too sure if it's in there, but still i can't find it anywhere around in the room! and my father said he found something in the book, but it's an unfinished piece of airplane which i gave up after trying for a super long time. I rather loose this then the rocking horse, although the beads are more ex. heart pain heart pain heart painnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. let's just pray that it's lying somewhere in the room. -------------------------------------------------------------------------- On a side note, I think i just fell deeply in love with lace, baby pink, navy blue, ribbons, checkers, polka dots, floral prints. hahs. okay polka dots is not new. i've been obsessed with them for a long time. but i still don't like purple. hahas. |
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