Passion With Swirls

Crazy Week Ahead

2010-09-12T23:35:00.002+08:00

Chalet's from 13th to 15th.

Poly Forum Briefing's on the 15th from 3pm to 5pm.

Mama's birthday's on the 15th. gotta get a cake for her.

Going to malaysia on the 16th early in the morning.

Wish me well.

He says I am killing myself.

Running round and round and round

2010-09-05T11:30:00.003+08:00

Had been running around singapore for the past 30 hours or so, without any sleep.

Woke up at 7 on a saturday, chionged to vivo to meet the delegates. Reached at 8.45 but went in to sentosa at about 10 or so. The delegates don't know what package to take and took a long time deciding it. First stop was the merlion, followed by cineblast(which i didn't go in, it was $18 for a 15 minutes show ), followed by skyrider(which was my first try, kiapped my slippers really tightly. LOL), and then we went to palawan, and back to vivo again. It was about 2.45 when we came out, so yeah, it was a really short trip.

Followed the delegates to the embassy, which was a super long walk from orchard MRT. We reached at about 4.15 or so . I was already half dead by then(only had 5 hrs of sleep the previous night). We were invited inside, but declined to since we were underdressed. Sat by the road till 5, talking to chan, kim, dan2 while danial went to fetch dy. We left when dy reached the embassy.

Cabbed home with dan2 and ryan. Was suppose to be back at orchard by 6.30 to have dinner with dave and chan. I reached home at about 5.40, got ready by 6. Vickii came over to my house at about 6.15?(she got lost on the way. heees) Took the letters from her, and rushed down to kathy's place to collect her letters. I was on 105, and she passed the letters to me through the front door of the bus. According to kathy, we were giggling while the bus driver was giving the *HUH?* face. hahahha. Couldn't stop smiling after that. It was too funny. Was almost at orchard, when danial sent an sms saying the venue's changed to bugis. Xin Ying joined us for dinner too.

soooooo, i took a bus from orchard to bugis, and met kim outside bugis junction, where we took a stop over to the eating place. and we ate indian food, which tasted weird, i feel. lol. didn't really eat much and felt full already, surprisingly. It must be because I didn't like the food. But it was more of a adult and adult talking session, kids and kids talking session. I am always having difficulty making out what dave is saying. Perhaps I was too tired. But anyway, after the dinner, dave and vincent went back,while we went to bugis village and caught a Indian performance, which we thought was a 七月歌台from far. hahhaa. went on to play pool after that, where the guys took about 15 minutes and the girls took about 45 minutes to finish 1 game. LOL.

Dy sent chan back and danial went to dy's house to shower, while kim, ryan, xin ying and I went to bugis street to get souvenirs for the kids :) I think I got Al too much stuff. lol. but it's okay, i rather someone bring it back to him than get the stuff lost in mail. Went over to the airport to chiong for the night, as well as to send the delegates off the next morning. So we reached the airport at about 11. and I chionged lit till about 4am or so. I spent an hour in the toilet with my lit tb. Must be the indian food I guess, and maybe the super salty ruffles that I ate in sentosa with my dirty hands. hah. Okay but no one else had an upset tummy except for me. oh well, the toilet's a good place to study in.

Travelled to T3 at about 6.15 and we received news that they are at the airport at around 7? so we took the skytrain back to t2 and we were actually so suay that the train broke down. The announcer was so funny. He said "please do not get off the train .....". but i don't understand how we can actually get off the train while it was stuck halfway. HAHHAHA.

On the way back from the skytrain to macdonalds, they were actually checking in already! ahhhhh. damn fast. so we rushed to get our bags, and went up again to find them. took many many pictures. chan was going around taking pictures with everyone, with the 自拍 method. mad cute. hahahah. (waiting for him to upload the pictures) and yeah, not long after that they were off. I didn't get to say goodbye to NC :( And I can't find her on fb. siannnnnnnnnnn

Took train home and was already dying. Valentia and I talked about flims, local flims, flim making, etc. It was really useful for me I guess, I learnt a lot from the convo, but I my brain was about to die, so I didn't manage to absorb as much as I use to.

Just reached home :)

writing this post so that I could remember the things that I've done in that memorable 30 hours :D

day 3. a photo that makes you happy

2010-08-28T00:13:00.002+08:00

My favorite photo of the YEP TEAM :D

I never knew I could smile like this until I went there :)

One of the happiest moment in my life, and memories that I am going to remember for life :)

day 2. a photo of yourself a year ago

2010-08-23T22:02:00.002+08:00

不好意思，贪心了点，放了三张，不过至少没有一张是我个人的。而且三张的头发都不一样。呵呵。

只能说当时的我比起现在的我，瘦，也没那么疲倦，最重要的是，当时的我，是最开心的我。:)

day 1. your facebook profile photo

2010-08-23T00:26:00.005+08:00

We got together because of that one teacher we use to laugh at together :)

我曾经遗忘过她们，不过我想她们一直都在我的潜意识里，伴随着我。谢谢你们。

I don't like that teacher, but I don't hate her. I want to thank her for disliking us, for her dislike has forged awesome friendships. She made the birds possible. [was looking for her photo on fb, the one that F took. But I can't seem to find it :( ]

And somehow, I feel that my blogskin was sort of made for them. I wasn't thinking much when I was making this blogskin, but somehow, now that I think back, perhaps they were in my mind all along.

There was this period of time where I neglected them for I had too much work to do, and I got new friendships to handle. I feel guilty and I am never doing that again.

I knew them for 6 years, some 5 and others 4.

Remember how we always say, that all of us are so different, yet we are able become such good friends?

蓦然回首那人却在灯火阑珊处，希望我们的友情不会因为岁月或环境的不同而磨灭或是被遗忘。

[我知道这是讲爱情的啦，可是友情也是情，应该也行吧]

希望这一切都不会停止。人家都说希望我的爱情长跑，我想说

希望我们的友情长跑！

pardon me for my bad english :)

30 Photos

2010-08-23T00:24:00.003+08:00

Both Serene and F are doing it, but since serene has the full list on her blog, I shall follow her's instead. F's version a little different from serene's. Cheryl has the 30 letters version on her blog. But I reckon more than half of the letters that I write will be in chinese. Posting a photo seems easier and faster toooo, so, yay, I shall start with this.

day 1. your facebook profile photo

day 2. a photo of yourself a year ago

day 3. a photo that makes you happy

day 4. a photo of the last place you went on holiday

day 5. a photo of you

day 6. a photo that makes you laugh

day 7. a photo of someone you love

day 8. a photo of your favourite band/musician

day 9. a photo of your family

day 10. a photo of you as a baby

day 11. a photo of your favourite film(s)

day 12. a photo of you

day 13. a photo of your best friend(s)

day 14. a photo of one of your favourite family members

day 15. a photo of you and someone you love

day 16. a photo of you at the last party you went to

day 17. a drunk photo of you

day 18. a photo of one of your classes

day 19. a photo of you on a school trip

day 20. a photo of something you enjoy doing

day 21. a photo of you standing up

day 22. a photo of your town day

23. a photo of your friend as a baby

day 24. a photo of you that your hair looks nice in

day 25. a photo of a night you loved

day 26. a photo of your favorite weekend

day 27. a photo of last summer

day 28. a photo of what you ate today

day 29. a photo of someone you find attractive

day 30. a photo of you when you were happy

莫名的感觉

2010-08-18T01:25:00.002+08:00

我从来没有过这种感觉。怎么办，我想找回以前的自己。不喜欢现在的自己。以前的我，比较开心吧，我想。

看了她们的博客，听了她们说的东西，我觉得我们都走不出这个圈圈，不过这是件好事。至少我更肯定，我们的6年的友情还在持续中。

鸟儿们，好想你们哦。

放假了！

2010-08-17T18:08:00.002+08:00

终于啊，我熬过了这个学期。好累哦。虽然这还不算是真正的假期，不过每天赖在家里的感觉真好。已经好久没出门了。我决定在这个假期消失，所以我不会主动跟任何人联络。我也不会主动邀约吧，除非我真的受不了了。

最近在家里想了好多好多事。

如果我是你的后补，那我宁可没你这个朋友。我一个人也过得很好不是吗？至少我现在是开心的。

跟以前的朋友比起来，真的真的很不一样。是我变了吗？还是，我长大了，看事情也看得比较透，知道了太多事，所以不能付出百分百的真心呢？或许是环境不一样了吧。这一切，都感觉好不真实。以前的感觉，我想找回来，因为我不想错过任何值得我付出的朋友。

该是时候留些时间给自己了。

加油吧，嘉敏。

2010-04-28T15:06:00.001+08:00

eunice & zandra, thanks for your email! thanks for the tags too people :)

Birdies, can we meet up more, like once every two weeks please please please.

2010-04-28T14:59:00.002+08:00

don't think I can get a new blogskin until the next holidays.

It's only the second week of school and homework is piling up already. Super super tired. However, looking forward to video production. Came up with a fab script(i think its fab) just now with my group! Hopefully we'll achieve the 效果 That we want when we
finish everything. Heh.

T

2010-03-25T22:44:00.004+08:00

I am on the verge on breaking down again. In fact, I am already tearing as I am writing this. I know I shouldn't feel burdened to even write out my thoughts on MY OWN blog. But I am now.

I am saving this as a draft. And perhaps if I've mustered enough courage, I will post this. 我必须敷衍自己才能完成此事。

What if they walked into my room, and saw me crying. I wouldn't be able to take another round of 羞辱。I often wonder, why why why do i have to endure with all this shit that's happening at home?

But I know, life isn't fair. And I knew this once my brother was born. But why, when something bad happens at home, it would often be associated with me. Maybe because my parents are too traditional, favours boys over girls. Or perhaps, I was a very rebellious girl when I was young which I thought so too. But now, I am sure I've changed but they haven seen the good side of me yet. Maybe they just can't be bothered, or they don't like changes. At least when something bad happens, they still have someone to blame it on.

I first noticed this when my brother got his PSLE results. He was 5 points behind me. And it was very obvious that my mother wasn't happy about it. But the fact that she was angry with me just because I am better then my brother doesn't make any sense at all to me. I was blamed for not teaching my brother well. And I actually have to be responsible for his grades?! I know this is dramatic. 信不信由你。But I think only Jing Yi can understand how I feel. She's going through a similar situation but something worst I guess.

***She just came into the room but didn't notice that I am crying. To be glad or not to be glad? I really don't know. A part of me wants her to notice and perhaps to read what I've written so that she'll know what I've been going through. And another part of me just want things to remain this way. I don't know how she'll react if we try to talk things out again. the last time I tried, it was a disaster.

Anyway, to continue, I was kinda glad that my brother was 1 point better then me in his o lvls. I mean I am happy that he did well. But it was more of a relief, because I don't have to be responsible for his results this time round. But, instead, my self-esteem suffered. I had to listen her telling me how stupid I was, how lazy I was and obviously after a few days of such 'brain-wash' you would believe it instead of trying to fight it off mentally which is too tiring. I know that I am weak mentally.

And and and, people who went to philippines with me would know how much I enjoy washing the dishes and clothes. Which she will never find out because she still has the mentality that I am a lazy girl who hates doing all housework. But you know what, after years of doing housework, I have learnt to love it. And if you ever noticed, I accept whatever housework that you give me willingly ever since I came to poly. Only using I am too busy or I have no time to reject your request, which you see them as excuses. But I bet you'll never know how tiring it is to study, or how tight time is when you are nearing the end of sem which I doubt you know when it is.

She find excuses for my brother automatically, like how he's tired, how he doesn't even have the time to do his homework. What makes you think I have more time then him? Maybe its just the polytechnic students doesn't study much and slacks a lot mentality that makes her think like this. But what I want to say is, I am not making excuses, and I am more then willing to help you with the housework because I know how tiring your job can be, because I have worked as a promoter before too. Please please stop putting me down, its making my self esteem suffer.

My brother is becoming super vain. And its all my fault again.

And I don't know what's with the money issue. I did not complain when you give him 15 dollars on cca days which is really too much. I stay back in school everyday because you don't give me a environment conducive enough to study. FYI $10 is only just nice for the amount of food I eat so I don't get to save up at all. And so sometimes I only eat my dinner at 10.30 at home, but that's because I want to save up some money. I bet you don't know this at all. So so so, why don't I have pocket money now??? I mean its the holidays and I can save up more rightttttttt. That is if I don't go out. And I don't think I will. i wanted to save up this holiday but you are not giving me a chance to do so.

I am not lazy and I did not purposely leave some food for you so that I would not need to wash the dishes. I admit that I am lazy at times but not till this extent of leaving food so that I do not need to do the dishes. I really cannot finish eating the food, and if I throw the food away, I would get scolding from you again.

I don't know why you have such an ugly picture of me in your heart. Its the saddest thing that has ever happened to me in my life I guess.

I admit that I put my friends before my family on the outside. But that's because they know me more than you. They understand me, they listen to me and its a colorful world when I am with them. But with you, its just a dark grey world with the negative stuff surrounding me. But deep in my heart I still placed my family first.

I miss the time in philippines where I don't have to endure all this shit. Where I can have people really believing in my abilities and not putting me down whenever they can. Where I can trust these people with my secrets. Where I can have heart to heart talks without feeling that I am being a burden to them.

I know I can still do this in singapore but the environment doesn't allow me to. I can't talk on the phone because I know they'll hear me. And things will get really bad if they hear me 'complaining' about my family to my friends. 家丑不可外扬。

I know that I shouldn't be affected by her comments about me being stupid, bad and every other negative impression that she has of me. But, she's afterall still my mother. What could be more hurtful then her negative comments?

2010-03-24T19:49:00.002+08:00

I am going to change my blogskin sooooon.

Birdies outing this week confirmed???

I miss you guys.

Let's make use of this time to catch up with one another okayy??? Before everyone starts to get busy again.

*and I don't see the need in asking around for everyone's results.

perhaps just to make yourself feel better?

2010-03-22T18:17:00.002+08:00

I am still having that weird feeling in my heart. I can't help it. But i still miss philippines a lot. At this time, we should be washing up and getting ready for dinner.

Outside team would be in the midst of bathing already. In the dark. In philippines, the sky at 6.30 would be dark already. Unlike singapore, which is still so bright. I am still trying to get use to the boring sg life. I want my life to be very packed, at least it would not feel like I am wasting my time away.

I feel that I've grown a lot and thought a lot during the trip. I don't think I have reflected so much ever in my life. And there were a lot of good habits that I've cultivated during the trip, like sleeping as early as 10pm and eating my meals on time. although its 5 meals a day.

Had a lot of conditions towards the end of the trip. My left foot is swollen now. But at least, I am able to walk properly now! Unlike the 3rd day of the bite where I have to limp around the whole day. But its still damn itchy now. And my mother doesn't want to bring me to the doctor. =.=

and and on the last day, blood literally squirted out from my lower lips. LOL. bled for damn long and a lot of blood was lost. at least from what I saw its like that. hahs. so on the last day of discussion, my foot was raised up, and i had to lie backwards to stop the blood from flowing out from my lips again. I guess that was really a funny sight. anyway, thank you all for helping me out when I was injured.

Dy mentioned something about me successfully stepping out of my comfort zone in singapore. I don't really understand this part actually. Apparently, I don't feel so. I wanted to ask but I wasn't able to because of my lips which was still bleeding at the time he was talking about me. so anyone who sees the point too wants to enlighten me??

And I've learnt some stuff about myself, for example, I am not really willing to clear up misunderstandings. Whenever people misunderstood me, I'll just let it be and tries to forget about it. or maybe wait for people to help me clear it up. I will never take the initiative to do it. but I think, I will start to take the initiative to clear the misunderstandings whenever they happen to me.

I want to see a doctor about my foot. At least I'll feel more secure. bleahhh.

Everything is over!

2010-02-13T17:01:00.002+08:00

but not quite over yet.

Reason being there's still a paper on the 22nd which I still feel nothing about it yet. Not worried, not anxious. I guess that's good anyway. hahaha.

I am still half sure whether I wanna do designing next time, but there's still time, so let's hope that I can be really sure soon.

I wanna design a new blogskin for myself or probably move to other blog hosting sites to see if I can do more. I need to design a poster for a seminar that i suppose to be super professional. I hope that I can do a great job out of it. And another blogskin for my friend.

Anyway norman said he quite like my web design so let's hope that it would be an A.

I went for a last minute cny shopping ytd with hui si and xin ying. Spent moneh again. omggg. okay. but I didn't regret. It was fun. The way hui si talks to those shopkeepers makes me laugh out loud.

going to chinatown laterrr at midnight. It would be fun I suppose, buying all those CNY goodies with friends.

OH OH OH! I am flying off to Philippines, dumaguete for a YEP trip on 8 march. super duper excited! PLANE PLANE PLANE! okay. I know I sua ku.

will be back on the 21st. I guess i'll be missing out on a lot of things. =(

so take note! don't plan outings from 8-21st okay!!! I dowan to miss out on any outings. I will be super super super super super sad.

2010-01-25T23:38:00.003+08:00

Wee is complaining so here I am!

OMFG. I didn't realize that translation test is tml until i read xin ying's blog. bleahhh.

i hate my work attitude.

getting more than 15 minutes late for class is a big no no.

doing assignments last minute is a big no no.

not listening in class resulting in hw undone and bad scores for test and last minute pia-ing for test.

forgetting impt stuff like test and assignment due dates until the last moment sucks.

and all this is taking away my sleep from me. I haven had a proper night sleep since this sem started.

meals are getting irregular like how i have not ate my dinner yet, cos i am rushing angel's hw, resulting in some weird feeling which i hope is not gastric.

my digestive system went all wrong too.

I need to remind myself of all the deadlines here on my blog. so i can refer to it daily.

29 Jan: Group Blog

1st feb: radio production

2nd feb: angel's report

5th feb: ray's essay

11th feb: radio production and website

12 feb: group report

and translation report which is due on week 16. but i don't even know what week is it now. WTF. I should bang the wall and die. but somehow i think we are almost done with that.

of all hw, i am only interested in doing norman's. how how howwwwwwww. instill some passion in me for writing reports. please. someone please do that.

plus on the 29th i am watching ah mei's concert.

on the 30th, 933's anniversary. after which i need to go back to school to ton till 3.30am and then go over to ECP to set up for RML.

which means i have to complete Radio and angel's report by thurs. which is quite impossible because I have 1000 more words to go and i need a male voice to do the voice over for the english interviewee that i had. which means extra translation and extra editing for meeeee.

I CANNOT FIND MY TRANSLATION NOTES!

this sucks

life sucks

and all this is because my work attitude sucks. and i am hungry.

2009-12-31T00:54:00.002+08:00

今年收获好多哦！让我来点算看，顺便炫耀一下吧！哈哈哈！

第一个gift exchange 是T03的christmas dinner。

拿到了charmain给的天使和手链。我觉得超适合我的！因为是用珠子做的。

接下来是和zach和eun度过了christmas eve。

收到了一只白表！哈哈哈。超开心的！

然后是4/2 chalet。很抱歉没有留下来。我真的真的很累。不过希望你们还是玩得很开心！

jiamin tay 送了一条裙子给我！哈哈哈。有新衣了！她给的卡片也很漂亮！真的很有quality。

最后最后就是cute means cute 的party了！

很幸运的拿到了一个外套。加上迷你风扇，再加上杯子！

你们说今年的圣诞节是不是过得很充实呢？？

谢谢你们啦！

我觉得我的礼物不够好。不过他们说熊很可爱。现在欠两个人熊了！要剂出一点时间做！

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i know this is a little early but i won't be home tml night, soooo here are my resolutions for 2010.

ONE.

clear my room! prevent those stupid spiders from living inside. and make sure that there's nothing under my bed.

TWO.

get that ikea shelf and dump all my craft related stuff inside.

THREE.

To get back that amount of money in my bank account before i started poly.

FOUR.

have a good balance between school, fun and commitments.

FIVE.

treat my MAC better

SIX.

Learn how to sew properly

SEVEN.

Learn a new craft, probably crochet.

EIGHT.

Find a way to earn some money and have fun doing it.

NINE.

Notice that there's nothing about my grades on this list

TEN.

I can't think of anymore things to write.

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On a side note,

the rubber thingy that isaac gave at the party, i gave it to my father. hahahahahhahaha.

My father left it on the table and i told my brother that's his christmas present. my brother took it for real, opened it up, saw what it is and actually wanted to take one of them to keep.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAH!

2009-12-25T22:48:00.004+08:00

Oh so what now? You don't want to pay for my shampoo? what's next? I'll have to pay for my own pads?????

And I do feel the pain when I see the amount of money in my bank getting lesser and lesser.

To think that I am trying so hard to save up so that I can pay for my own expenses in china.

To think that I always avoid taking the train just so that I can help you save money.

60 dollars a week isn't a lot for someone who eats 4 meals a day, who has to pay for every single thing herself when she's not working.

Don't you have a brain? WTF.

我的家，一点也不温暖。

2009-12-25T02:45:00.002+08:00

THE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE! HAHAHAS. Have been living it to the fullest since day 1. =D

Monday: Singing Outing

Had a great time singing! at a super low price tooooo! hahahs. wei ting's voice is damn power! andddd, yi jie sang in front of us for the first time! hahahahhahas.

Tuesday: Christmas Dinner

Those crabs taste fab! hahahas. okay. my gift is CMI. butttt, it's because i've no time to make one. i'll 补偿you when school reopens. hahhas.

Went to arcade and then to pool after dinner. and awwww, these two days are over in a flash. =( I've yet to have more fun! hahahas.

it was a skirt/dress day! hahas.

辫子day is coming soon！

Thursday: Eve outing with eun and zach

heeeee. zach brought his school cam. managed to take some nice pictures. hahahs. still waiting for him to pass me the pictures. so no pics yet. we walked around then stopped to eat walked around then stopped to eat. so we ate a lot today! but, i am still hungry now. awww.

It's going to be a busy busy holiday. oh well.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

OH NOOOO！

2009-12-14T18:55:00.001+08:00

This is the reason why Jiamin is not doing her homework. =(

2009-12-11T00:31:00.003+08:00

yay! I am a happy girl! hahahs. 助人为快乐之本。我帮了3个人所以我很快乐！虽然很累，不过还是值得的。看到他们的作品完成的时候，我也很有成就感！虽然design不是我做的。

不过norman似乎不是很喜欢我的design。bleah。还有对于一些copycat，我也不想再想了。我问心无愧。

我很庆幸我是在T03，而不是其他两班。因为我们是一起读书一起玩！不像一些人竞争那么强，常常把成绩卦在嘴边。这样子你们的压力不会很大吗？

不过我们的工作态度还是非常认真的。

那晚在cheers吃杯面，虽然很凄凉，很累，不过我还是很开心。这一切都是值得的。

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天使老师说我的导语不错，不过文章的连接性不够好。怎么办，我对写作真是又爱又恨。对于norman的功课也是这个样子。

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前几天去看《花木兰》，没有比我相像中的好看，感人。不知道是真的这样还是被傍边的人吵到了，之后就没那么有感觉。

我改次不要做在她旁边了！！已经是第二次了。

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你能不能不要一直说话？很烦！

2009-12-07T22:02:00.002+08:00

我好像只对Norman的功课感兴趣，虽然不喜欢那个老师，不过喜欢做他的功课。

and I finished his homework! hahahhaha. but i am not satisfied yet. i still think it looks ugly.

radio production is nice to do too!

all the other homeworks are super challenging. I DON'T LIKE TO WRITE.

我只是心情不好，想来写一些东西来发泄。

2009-11-25T23:32:00.002+08:00

I don't know how much longer I can hold out, with a serious lack of sleep and rest.

Out everyday in school, to run some errands, or work.

Homework is piling up, and i got no time to do them. I just bathe eat and sleep once i reach home and a new day starts with just a few hours of sleep everyday.

My research is not completely done yet and I feel that I have not done anything for ray's project when everyone is working really hard. I feel really bad towards my group.

Met a great group of commonwealthians during the vox camp and another during the arts biz camp. yay.

2009-11-17T21:21:00.003+08:00

My only day at home is gone toooooooooooo. =((((

saturday need to go sch for parents seminar... bleahh. okay. for the cca points, i'll do it.

looking forward to dialogue in the dark!

2009-11-16T00:12:00.002+08:00

it has been long since i blogged. and since serene is complaining, i am going to blog in english.

school has been super busy, going out every single day. mondays to saturdays to school and sundays to run errands. =( have not rested at home for a single day since school reopened. stupid sch.

projects are becoming more and more demanding. everything is getting more difficult. and I can't focus in class. I think I am too tired. I dunno how my results will turn out this sem. probably super bad. I have no idea what the teachers are teaching up till now. esp translation and ray's as usual. lol. angel's toooo. I think i am dyinggg. luckily all are not examinable cept for ray's.

yay. the long awaiting e-learning week is here. but, I am more busy then usual.

look at my schedule and do not jio me out. I don't even know if i can go for prom. =(

16: Popular + OVB + Art Biz meeting

17: Vox

18: Red camp + tuition

19: probably out to sing + steamboat

20: norman + louis + DID

21: HOME

22: tuition

23: Vox + Prom

24: Vox

25: Art Biz

26: Art Biz

27-29: Ray Project

only full day at home. bleahhhh. everyday is a full day out. from 8 to 6 if not 9. I think i am going to die of exhaustion. okay. but my cca points heheh, is going to increase by a lot a lot.

and and on top of all this, I need to

finish a newsletter and emailer and the name thing.

try very hard to do something for OVB

finish a cover letter and resume

do all the e learning activities online which i wonder how since i'll be out everyday.

finish ray's project

interview thingy

entertain super last minute request from the prom ppl which is really getting on my nerves.

which means i don't get to do any crafts. =(( i don't even have time to read books nowadays. =.=

so please stop getting me to do last minute things. as you can see, i don't even have enough time to sleep. and please do not try to talk to me unless you've got something to say. else bug off. i don't have time to entertain you. and i am falling sick soon.

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on another note, [i know this is a bit late but...]

Joanna is the first international idol! hehehe.

read the article here and watch the video!

http://ourvoicebox.sg/posts/internationalidol_ourfootprint_anna_13112009_ovb

and yes, my newsletter is super ugly and i've got no idea what to do for the emailer. *bang wall bang wall* give me some inspiration!!

好忙啊。赚钱、读书，读书、赚钱

2009-11-01T01:59:00.003+08:00

虽然听起来有点变态，不过半夜做面膜的感觉真的很爽～

好久没来打字了。哈哈。开学两个礼拜了。还是比较喜欢上学期的班和老师。这学期的tree跟上学期的shadow教学方式有点相似。也就是说，我很讨厌tree。我觉得她没资格教我们。怎么每一堂课都会传达一些错误的讯息啊？

这学期的老师也很严厉。不能用电脑，会死呃。不过想必大家都心知肚明是谁告诉他们我们上课会用电脑吧。不过以前的T01很少有人用啊。

目前排行榜：

1：web design application 我的最爱。

2：radio production 我爱上了剪辑。看得出我比较喜欢动手多过用脑吧。

3：media culture 他的课的讨论是我的最爱。哈哈。因为我还满喜欢shoot他的。而且也比较熟。

4：news feature 还好不是shadow教的。有实力就是有实力。随便讲两句我都会哇。哪像那棵树啊。

5：written comm 我想就不用多说了吧。英文。而且老师好像有一点过渡热情。

6：translation 其实我还蛮期待的。不过那棵树真的是cmi。最想pon的就是她的课。

其实如果前4名的课排在拜日我想我都甘愿去咯。

最近radio production常常要录自己的声音。老实说，我并不是讨厌自己的声音，我觉得没有很难听啊，当然也不是很好听。不过听自己的声音就是很奇怪。。。我想我们都该学会爱上自己的声音才不会每次听录音的时候都那么痛苦吧。我把录音机借回家了。明天要好好的玩！audacity我来了！

我以前真的很讨厌dreamweaver。不过现在觉得还蛮容易用的。哈哈。如果有时间的话，blogskin又要该咯！

我工作的事父母都不懂哦。能瞒多久就瞒多久。不然零用钱要被扣了啦。

2009-10-25T02:08:00.000+08:00

明天工作，希望一切顺利，不要在她面前情绪失控，还是哭出来什么的。

千万不要。

2009-10-25T01:59:00.000+08:00

那樣的純真我很懷念它不複雜卻簡單的很實在 .

我渴望回到纯真的时代。

2009-10-25T01:28:00.003+08:00

我可以画一个圈，把自己关在里面，把回忆挡在外面

唯一一晚不用那么早睡。

我，渐渐想通了。我相信是因为还没适应换班这东西吧。天啊。没想到对我的伤害有那么大。我当初只是想说很可惜T01就这样分开了，没想到我的心情会有那么大的变化。看到那么多人对我叫我开心点，我才发觉其实关心我的人一直都在，只是我以为他们都不在了。

我发现，是我把自己封闭起来，不让任何人靠近。可能是中学时期造成的创伤吧，害怕了，所以不再跟任何人诉说心事。我觉得最容易跟玮玮开口，因为她有时也会跟我说她的心事，所以当我跟她说的时候，她也会听。以前，都没人会跟我说他们的心事啊。不是我不听，是他们从不跟我说。当我跟他们说时，他们就拿几句话来敷衍我。真的好难受。但也不能怪他们。我从来都没听你说过你的心事，你又会有什么理由来听我说呢。我想我的心态是这样的。

我讨厌被敷衍的感觉。甚至可以说是害怕这种感觉。

有时当周围的人试图关心我时，我会怀疑。怀疑是真的还是假的。是因为做朋友的义务就是要关心朋友。如果没关心那就是自私／不好的朋友。我知道这是一种抗拒／封闭自己的行为。我知道这对真正关心我的朋友很不公平。我想说声对不起。我会慢慢接受你们的关心。我会慢慢相信你们是真的关心我的。

我不知道为什么，我越来越不懂得跟别人说话。我怕这是一种自我封闭的现象。我觉得我有双从性格。我知道我在自我封闭，我不喜欢。不过我不知道要怎么打垮心里的那道墙。我觉得自己变得很可怕。不再是我所认识的嘉敏。

自那天起，我每天都在哭。现在也在哭。我不知道为什么。

我不想变成外星人。

2009-10-23T18:06:00.002+08:00

今天又在学校哭了。不知为什么，上了理工学院，好像变得感性许多，常常在学校崩溃。之前是因为太多功课，压力太大。
不过今天我不知道为什么突然间，我整个人沉默了，然后变得很生气。最后真的压抑不住就跑到厕所哭了。直到现在，我不知道真正的原因。

或许，再也没人跟我说话了
或许，老师们都非常严格
或许，玮玮和绣婷都不在了
或许，我还没适应这个班级，大家都玩在一起，只有我一个人站在旁边静静看。
或许，我发现没人了解我
或许，没人愿意听我说话
或许，因为有很多手上的事情都还没做完
或许，我发现了一些残酷的真相
或许，身旁的人都很自私
或许，我担心太多了
或许，这学期比上学期可怕多了
或许，月经快来了
或许，我变胖了，所以正在伤心

我觉得我自己很奇怪。疯了疯了。现在只想躲在家里对着电脑和电视，不想跟任何人说话。

2009-10-20T18:17:00.000+08:00

＊发花痴中＊好帅哦！帅呆了。哈哈哈。＊流口水＊我开始觉得我们这班还满幸运的嘛。

Sabo-ed by ray to be the class rep. the conversation went like this:

Ray:嘉敏，你在t03对吗？
Me: ＊点头＊
Ray: 那你就暂时先来当吧。

this morning's lecture, i arrived early and was the only class rep, so i became the module rep for translation. =.= and now i am also the rep for written comm. lol.

wednesday is going to be a happy day for the rest of the sem. lol.

the translation teacher doesn't have very good english. she said please supervision, when it's suppose to be please supervise. across is pronounced as cross. and i heard evening when it's suppose to be e-learning. OMG. i predict that this module should be easy due to the standards of the teacher. lol.

i somehow think she will become like the one who failed last sem.

looking forward to web design. not so much for the person okayyyyy. it's for the content. lol. plus, he's number 4....

2009-10-18T23:24:00.001+08:00

2009-10-18T00:44:00.002+08:00

I earned my first sum monehh this month! hahas. okay. it's a mere 18 dollars which i spent it all already. i should really stop visiting kino and pop. cannot keep my hands off books. and i am saving another 60 dollars to get that doraemon comic set. saving perhaps another 50 to get more beads. bleah. money goneeee.

john little has this giraffe soft toy that is big enough to hug and reasonably cheap. only 14 dollarssss. i want it!!!! but i haven got a good look at it yet. hahas. i don't really hug soft toy but it's a giraffe! i think if i get a tweety or doraemon i will hug it too. but my current tweety is tooo small to hugg.

sch starts tml. yay! but my tummy has been baddd. keep shitingg. excited to see number 1 again. hahahas. so not looking forward to cca. thinking of joining choir instead. work starts on tues! hopefully i can handle it. hehes. saturday's gone. but whatever. as long as there's moneh i am fine. hehe. saturday's lesson better be good/interesting/impt enough to make me go back. if not i think i will keep ponning sch on saturdayy. hahas.

yay! i think i am all ready for schh. got to adjust my bio clock. i've been sleeping at 3 everyday. like what song hui say, i do not yawn too until 3am. hahas. i am going to sleep at 11 and wake up at 7 everyday. this is the last day i am sleeping soooo late. and i think i wanna pon monday's cca. since it's only the first day of school.

2009-10-14T01:05:00.002+08:00

我的钱，

花光啦！

惨了惨了。真的是惨了。都还没开学，钱就花光了。要拿什么去吃饭啊。嗨。。。生日那天大买特买。刚好又碰到chalet。这个礼拜四和星期六，怎么办呢？我现在只靠我多年来的积蓄存活。没吃的话，我可是会死掉的。bleah。

欠我钱的人，拜托拜托尽快还我好吗？

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满怀期待的等着开学的第一天。不但不用烦恼要穿什么衣服，还能看看新老师。最不值得期待的就是新班。对不起啦。我真的不是很喜欢我的班。不过，在任何一班都不好啦。

T01 chalet，只有9个人到。不过，我们还是玩得很开心。我一直以来都以为我们班只有23个人。终于在打桌球的时候，他们告诉我有27个人。哈哈。真的不知道该怎么说才好。那晚，我只记得一到了九点，我都不理身旁的人。眼里只存在着电视。应该是到了大概12点吧，我才开始跟大家说话。

那晚的小强也实在太多了吧。而且现场没有一个人是不怕的哦。只有欣盈一个，不过重点是她没有过夜。我好像过了九点就再也没有踏出门一步了。

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前几个礼拜是和蜜蜂大作战，他在我房里飞来飞去，吓得我都不敢关灯上床睡觉。

然后再隔几天就是在chalet里对抗小强。

前几天，我在厕所和壁虎玩对看游戏。至少有15分钟吧。他就在门把爬来爬去。我的手根本没那个勇气去开门嘛。。。

要知道我最怕的东西就是昆虫。虽然壁虎不是，不过他软软的。看了都怕。

2009-10-10T00:55:00.003+08:00

突然发现站了好久，不知要往哪儿走。

还不想回家的我，再多人陪只会更寂寞。

如果你也听说－张惠妹

我发现，最近的我，常常这个样子。我变得很少开口说话。不知是没共同话题、不想说话、还是什么其它原因。我变得更像一个聆听者了。其实我觉得做聆听者比演说者来得更好。说话不能让你学到什么。反而，聆听能让你吸收、反思、分析、然后再做回应。这句话，很熟吧。可能当我知道聆听者的好处后，就希望自己变成一个聆听者，而且我觉得我有做得比之前好。

现在，说话常常让我觉得在跟别人打架，斗嘴。可能身边的人都太乐于分享吧。我就在一旁静静的听着就行了。说这么多，还不是饶来饶去。埋怨这么多，也没什么用。倒不如不说话。

不过，我害怕我会越来越不喜欢说话、不理会别人说的话，最后变成一个沉默的人。希望这一天不会到来。

Bye world

2009-10-08T00:41:00.003+08:00

bye world, going off for chalet and straight to camp afterwards.

would be back on sunday but i guess i'll sleep in till monday.

going to miss my bed and the ac, although the chalet and loft have them tooooo. but nothing is more comfortable then my own home.

and goodbye my mac. gonna miss you so muchhhhh.

2009-10-05T23:15:00.003+08:00

OMG!!! I left a finished piece of 3d beaded rocking horse in the library book!!!! it's now in the library! took me a few days to finish it since 3d beading is not my 强项。double the heart pain.

>.<

i was sleeping luh, then my parents came to ask if i had any books that i wanna return. i passed them a few books, and didn't bother to check if there's anything inside. apparently i was quite irritated and just wanted to get back to sleep quickly. bam

okay, actually i am not too sure if it's in there, but still i can't find it anywhere around in the room! and my father said he found something in the book, but it's an unfinished piece of airplane which i gave up after trying for a super long time. I rather loose this then the rocking horse, although the beads are more ex.

heart pain heart pain heart painnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. let's just pray that it's lying somewhere in the room.

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On a side note, I think i just fell deeply in love with lace, baby pink, navy blue, ribbons, checkers, polka dots, floral prints. hahs. okay polka dots is not new. i've been obsessed with them for a long time. but i still don't like purple. hahas.

Happy Birthday to me =D

2009-10-05T01:23:00.007+08:00

Many many thanks to all those who wished me a happy birthday. hahas.

Many thanks

to:

Joanne Lim, Audrey Lim, Samantha Soo, Sherrill, Jing Yi chan, Guo Hao, Jun Xian, Jessica, Siew Ting, Raj, Sharina, Zandra, Hui Si, Marilyn, Yong Jian, Adeline, Jolene, Shi Jia, Ping Hui, Kenn, Carrisa, Rahul, Ting Ting, Zheng Wei, Pei Shan, Zi Yi, Alvin, Zul, Anne, Xin Ying cai, Li ying, Si min, esther, Jing Yi zhou, Michelle, Charmain, William, Ying Tong, Jaryl, Zhi Yang, Jasper, Yee Liang, Nian Ting, Ellise, Cherrie, Cheryl Seow, Samantha whang, and ruyi.

for the wishes on fb,

Malcolm and Siew ting who wished me happy birthday on msn,

Zandra for the email,

Hui Min for being the first to msg, Peck yong for remembering, serene for this,

Liying, Jolene, Dexter, Jia Jing, Bibiana, Dolly, Mama, Dan Dan, Eunice, Yvonne for the sms.

oh oh, and ah bob 老师 for the happy birthday that you said. lol.

hehes. stage art seniors for the cake on wed, wee2 and hui min for the cake this morning.

Had a great day today! Went to yuki yaki for lunchh. hahas. joanna, sherrill, yi jie, hui min, wee2, thanks for treating me. but i tell you a secret nowwww. i am HUNGRY. >.<>

My presents! i know weeeeeeeee2 did it for very long and pour her heart and soul into it, even getting glue on her keyboard. lol.

and guess what? it's made out of the chicken rice paper. hahaas. damn hilarious when i realize it. but still its nice. hee. oh oh. i teared on the bus after reading everything. hahas. you all got 成功 in 打动-ing me.

Cabbed over to old school for bob's photography exhibition after yuki yaki. was late but still got to hear bob talk a bit laa. hahas. but most of the time i dunno what he talking about.

and and, last stop was bugis! look at my 战利品！

4 pairs of studs, 1 necklace, 1 hairband, 2 bangles, 1 pair of jeans, 1 skirt, 1 top and 1 emo teeee. belt was freeee. hahas. spent a total of 86.40. heart pain but still happy. it's my birthday so i've got to enjoy and worry about money later. hahas.

pardon those lousy photos. i don't have a camera cept for the phoneee.

Jiamin

2009-10-03T19:25:00.003+08:00

wondering why is everyone moving to tumblr and onsugar. but on sugar sounds nicer. hahas. shall try it out soon!

i still prefer blogger to wordpress. hahas.

2009-10-03T01:24:00.010+08:00

我觉得我疯掉了。这个假期，我已经看了以下的五部戏。而且假期还没结束。估计应该还可以再看多一两部。太恐怖了。看了那么多，又喜欢上许多艺人了。除了陈桥恩、阮经天，现在还多了很多很多。最好看的当然是恶作剧一吻和二吻。接下来应该会去看我的万亿面包吧。然后会去看完全部林依晨的戏。桥恩的我已经通通看完咯！

2009-09-29T21:32:00.002+08:00

再也不敢跟玮玮单独出去了啦！我们不是同性恋好吗！！！气死我了。Ｕncle怎么能乱乱下定论啊！

It’s devastating to know that T01 can never be T01 again.
最近常常在想学校的一些事情。不论是分班或者是新的timetable，都让我很不想回去上课。T01再也不可能是T01了。第一次有这种很不想分开的感觉。

也许是像怡洁所说的，因为班级很小，所以我们的感情非常好
也许是因为我们是为了共同的一个目标前进
也许是因为这是我第一次感受到每一个人都是真诚的对待彼此的
也许是因为太多的作业把我们的感情在短短的四个月里拉得很进
也许是这一班的人真的是太好了

第一次，那么勇敢的发言
第一次，那么努力的敢功课
第一次，那么看重功课
第一次，无压力的上课，考试，读书
第一次，第一次，第一次
我有很多的第一次是现给你们的。

这一切的一切我很庆幸拥有过，如今也试着放手，准备从新接受一个全新的班级。不会太可怕，因为身边还是有T01的人陪着我。真的很开心遇见你们。我永远都不会忘记我们一起共同努力，共同进退的感觉。不知道以后还会不会有这样的感觉。其实，最难得的就是我们都不会视彼此为竞争对手。这是一种前所未有的感觉。

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新的timetable，好烂哦！礼拜三和四，中间休息3小时。真的很浪费时间。但，最可恶的还是礼拜六！对，你没看错，就是礼拜六！礼拜六竟然要我们回来上课！？我在意的不是那个礼拜六，而是六天都必须回学校。不过，再说下去也没用啦。希望学校能改一改吧。

2009-09-22T23:16:00.002+08:00

我不知道你为什么那么不信任我。如果不信任我的话，当初又何必让我做组长呢？组长一点都不好当。而且，我也没有强迫你们让我当组长不是吗？

你知道你每一次的质疑，就仿佛是在我身上捅了一刀。很痛很痛。我要怎么做才能获得你的信任呢？或许是我迷迷糊糊的个性让你不相信我，不过至今，我也没搞砸什么事情啊。

拜托你，对我有一点信心好吗？

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如果一开始，就不打算让我参与，那么为什么又给我那么多假望呢？

我的心真的碎了。。。

2009-09-20T13:08:00.001+08:00

I slept with a smile on my face yesterday night because he still remembers and it means a whole lot to me. I am grateful for that. =)

2009-09-18T14:03:00.007+08:00

2009-09-18T11:42:00.001+08:00

我觉得我的文笔越来越像玮玮。怎么办？我要找回属于我自己的风格啦！

2009-09-18T11:19:00.002+08:00

玮玮 said...

艾微你好，我是玮玮。这次是我第二次上来点歌，希望能被你念出。因为上次第一来点歌时，应该是排的太后了，留言没能被你念出来。这次早早留来留言，希望机会高一点。^^

我今天想点歌给 NP CMC T01 的所有同学。今天我们在mel上面知道了我们这个学期所有学科的成绩。不管是考的好或不好，我都想告诉他们，我们T01是最好的，最棒的。很快的这一个学期就要结束了，而下个学期我们就得被从新分班，大家以后不能够再天天一起上课了。可是，在这一个学期里，我很高兴我能够和他们同班，认识到他们这群好朋友。我相信在往后得日子里，我一定会回想起我们这半年来，一起玩闹，一起赶功课，一起在午餐后，吃着大盘大盘得水果得样子。开学后，不管我们在哪一个班，我们都要一起加油，一起努力，一起毕业！

最后，也想把这首个点给艾微，祝你happy working!

一向很认真的玮玮

awwwww....虽然昨天没听到（因为刚刚从camp回来，到了8点半就完全不行了。没撑到9点。对不起玮玮）但是，我还是去看了。如果有听到的话，当然会更感动。可是用看的，然后试着想像玮玮说话的语气和样子，我真的有被摸到（感动到）。真的差点落泪了！李玮玮总是有一些很奇怪的能力，她说的话，常常会让我落泪。而且，明知到我是一个感情很丰富的人，她还是照做。有时甚至是她的一番短短的话，不论是在msn，短信，电话或是面对面说话，我都会很感动。我觉得很庆幸交到她这个真正关心我的朋友。我真的感受到了你的诚意。谢谢你。

还有，我想对T01说，虽然我们快要分开了，但我们心中还是会存在着彼此的。不是吗？这一班，可以说是一个奇迹。虽然，我们有分成五组人，都有自己的好朋友，不过，不管跟任何一个人在一起，我都很自在。我可以很有自信的说，我能跟每个人单独吃饭都不会感到不自在。这是我第一次有这样的感觉。我以前的班，直到现在，跟某些人单独吃饭还是一件很尴尬的事。这班，很随和，不会为了无聊的事吵架。我们都很关心彼此，而且是真的，不是那种为了利益才关心别人。虽然，我有曾讨厌过某些人。但是现在回想起来，我觉得那些只是小事。所以现在，我都很爱你们！

我想说的是虽然我们快分开了，不过我还是会常常想念你们。其实分班不一定是坏事。必须要学会跟其他人相处。可能他们没有我们想像中的坏呢？我只希望他们不要那么吵，在适当的时候说话就行了。

我们还是要一起吃饭，一起努力，一起开开心心的毕业哦！

2009-09-18T09:23:00.003+08:00

成绩，成绩，成绩！

Intro to mass comm: A (=D)

Publication Design: B+ (=|)

Social Psychology: B+ (=D)

Speech and Presentation Skills: D+ (=x)

Visual Comm: A (=D)

Writing for chinese media: B+ (=D)

ooo. and my GPA is 3.3333

Stupid speech and presentation that pulled it down. =(

oh oh, i got a C+ for my korean! hehehe. not bad for someone who studied on that day itself. =)

I am actually HAPPY! LOL. although I feel that publication design can be better, hence that =| face. Speech and Presentation was very expected, hahs, I screwed all my presentations up. Intro to mass comm and Vis comm was totally a surprise! I know i screwed my paper for mass comm hehe. but how the hell did i manage to get an A? nevermind. It was a pleasant surprise.

Okay. enough of my results.

If you are wondering why i am actually typing in in english, it's all thanks to the camp that i just went for! hahas. yew heng sort of lectured me for using chinese and dexter told me to step out of my comfort zone. so i did that and i am using english again! and actually my english is not as bad as i thought. nah. i am just being optimistic here. lol. high I is super optimistic. hehe.

CAMP'S FUN, EDUCATIONAL AND ALL THE OTHER POSITIVE ADJECTIVE THAT YOU CAN THINK OF!

ps: anyone had anne's blog url?

在逃避什么呢？

2009-09-13T00:18:00.000+08:00

我常常在逃避。
逃避什么呢？逃避一些我该做的事，然后跑去做类似的事。就是偏偏不要做那一件事。
哇。好像在绕口令哦。

最近必须帮忙设计一些东西。我喜欢设计，可是别人拜托我的事，托那么久了，我都不想去做／还没做完。
自己的却又做得那么快。
我不知道我为什么要逃避。
好烦哦！

就拿今天来说吧，我给博客换上新面貌，在短短几个小时内就完成了。
不过，别人委托我的工作，本来是可是在更短的时间做完，却迟迟都还没开工。
我不想再欺骗他们，欺骗自己了。

最近应该是韩剧看太多。常常会用到“拜托”这词。好奇怪哦。
应该也是太常看桥恩的戏，常常说“你很奇怪”

怎么今天写的东西都那么感伤呢？
奇怪了。我应该要很开心才对。
非常喜欢自己设计的“博客皮”。
有我自己做的摩天轮！自豪。

最近常在翻译一些故事，灵感也就来了。
开始写了两篇故事。哈哈哈。
好开心哦。好久没写小说了。
不过现在写得不象小说，也不像剧本，一半一半。不知道怎么办。
只知道不是剧本，因为没有怪怪的符号，和场景的过多介绍。
也不象是小说，因为都是对白，而且写的时候都很有画面，比较像剧本多一些。
我写的既不是小说，也不是剧本。该怎么办啊。
只能说是个烂剧本，或是烂小说了。 =(

哈哈。突然发现上面有三个最近开头的。

这几个月的生活点滴！

2009-09-10T16:05:00.016+08:00

一些很久很久以前的照片，和最近的事情，都收入在以下。
P.s I am too lazy to resize each picture one by one. so it's too bad that they are too big. hahaha

我亲爱的鸟儿们！

09／09／09 Sakae with Birdies at Lot 1
Meaningful day with a bunch of meaningful people.
and HAHAHA Bibiana and Fiona

Teachers day with 4/2 girls at clementi kbox

Surprise! All of you are in my portfolio! hees.

4/2 BBQ!

Ngee Ann

During Z chen concert. heheh. still have not got over him yet. hahah. love his voice!

Portfolio presentation! with bob, eng tiong and norman. heh heh. great teachers.

During chinese cultural camp at ngee ann primary. hahahs. we are killing each other so happily. lol. miss siew ting many many.
this is the happiest part of the camp. the rest are urgh!

CMC Ushers. we look like people working in the bank. hahaha. but it's a blur photo. =(

Cling event. hehehe.

With janice during last psy lesson. yay. i finally know her name. LOL.

谢谢班长！

我们这一班

ECP and flyer with green gang and tok kongs

Chars B day party

haaha. the cake that we made.

Other Random Shots

2009-09-08T23:57:00.002+08:00

又是无趣的一天。但倒没之前那么无趣啦。今天都没动到电脑哦！只是现在，又到了不想睡觉时间！才来用电脑的。这也是之所以你能看到我现在所打的字。

今天早上（也不算早上啦。其实是下午1点）很勉强地从床上爬起来到学校去。只为了还一件外套。浪费了我一个小时。然后回到家边吃午餐边看痞子英雄。然后然后压轴来了！我做了cupcake（华文叫杯糕吗？）可是觉得没有上次做的好吃。应该是因为妈妈坚持买便宜的牛油，不够香。哈哈。

ahh. can't type chinese anymore. there's something wrong with this computer. it gets angry when i type chinese in blogger >.<

bleah. not going to blog anymore if it's in english.

2009-09-08T02:30:00.002+08:00

应不应该在开多一个博客然后那博客都只用华语呢？有时后打出来的东西不方便给一些人看＊讲某些人坏话的时候。不把名字写出来，不够过瘾。好不正常的心态哦＊但是不给人家看我又觉得没有发泄到。真是矛盾。

想要工作，但一些没钱的工作已排得满满的。光是prom已经把我快折磨死了。虽然说他们很尽力的在帮我的忙，可是他们也只是用说的。这个我也会。真正做的还是我啊。嗨。。。

最近的坏习惯又回来了。常常不甘愿睡觉。明明就很累了，可是又不肯睡。搞得自己累得半死。而且现在越来越晚睡或者说是越来越早睡。平均每天都是4点多睡。有时甚至6点才睡。真不像样。然后脸色就非常苍白。好丑哦。

想给博客改头换面，可是最近忙别的事都忙疯了。没时间好好享受假期。怎么还有时间做这种事呢？

2009-08-30T21:40:00.000+08:00

最近好多好好看的电影哦。但是又没钱看，又没人要陪我看。

最近发现身边的一些朋友突然之间变得好假，好远。就不能再回到从前吗？可是回想起来，从前的一切好像都没有真实过。可能我又看错人了吧。但这一次不止一个而是一整群。那天跟玮2聊起某个人，发现她真的好假哦。玮2说真诚是用真心来感觉的。看到了这段话，突然像领悟到了什么。我发现跟她们相处时，我其实也很假。我不喜欢这样的自己，甚至讨厌这样的自己。为什么要那么假呢？如果都是假的倒不如不做朋友算了。何必花那么多时间和精力来敷衍彼此呢？可是后来我又发现了，其实我们都需要彼此。或许是自尊心，虚荣心在作祟吧。让外人看我们有很多朋友，有人关心我们。欺骗自己，我是有朋友的。不是什么怪胎。但，这一些如果不是真正的感情所换来的，那么，值得吗？

现在的朋友虽然话不多，常常会说到一半就没话说，然后就突然静下来。没想到我也会有这样的一天对吧。哈哈。其实，玮2不在的时候，我们都是没话说的啦。但是我们是享受那种沉默的。这沉默不是尴尬的。仿佛只要有彼此在身边就很满足，不会想要其它的什么。我喜欢这种沉默。

我们这一班，感情才刚刚要变好的时候，又要分了。我都还会叫错欣颖和欣盈的名字！还没懂得怎么好好珍惜你们，我们又要分了。＝(
说实在的，我很不想跟别人同一班，平时看一下我们的对差就好了。我没办法跟他们相处。想必我会疯掉！除了某些人之外，我觉得我们班其实几乎完美。每个人都很融洽啊。没什么过节。我真的真的会很舍不得。但该来的还是要来。也只能说我跟有些人有缘无份。

打着打着，忽然发现心里其实有好多好多话想说，不知不觉的打了那么多字。

在理工学院的第一个学期就这样结束了。学校实在太大了，到现在都还没走完！前几个月，熬得很辛苦，功课一个接一个。而且全都是没有老师先前教过怎么做的。全都要自己去尝试，去失败，才能得到一些结果。全班都很卖力，一起拼命前进。不象其它的斗得你死我活。这么好的精神真是难得啊。

当初开始读这科系的时候，身边的人都不支持。既然还有一个在华文方面语言能力比我差的人说我的华文不够好，不适合读这个科系。但是现在我能大声的对她说，我没有选错科系。我也从来没后悔过。

因为我知道我现在是开心的。

2009-08-04T22:51:00.002+08:00

请问一下，这到底是我的博客还是你的博客？我的博客内容还要你教我写吗？有价值没价值是由我评估而不是你。我觉得没价值，所以就不写啦。有什么问题吗？不喜欢就不看。我又没有逼你看我的博客。而且，博客对我的作用是用来发泄情绪。如果你觉得看了会伤你眼睛，或是觉得我很小气，对我有什么改观的话，那么就不要看啊。这里不欢迎你请你走吧，不留恒记，从此也就不要再回来了。

如果你是来存心气我，要报仇的那么，我会奉陪到底。我最近有点太大压力，很想找个人吵架。

2009-08-04T00:07:00.003+08:00

今天真的发生了很多事。气了一整天。真是可笑。

跟老师发生了一点点的小冲突吧。但是，也不用给我们脸色看对吧。我也很不爽你你懂吗？

还有另一个，要改就好好的改。不然就不要动我的纸。不用敷衍我说没办法改。我宁愿你直接拿回给我说离题了。根本就没有诚意。只在乎你自己的同类。

cca方面，本来以为下个礼拜就能解脱了。哪知道演出取消，要托到明年一月。老师说要原班人马。也就是说，我还要继续呆下去。＝。＝不知道该开心还是伤心。

有些人找了一大堆借口，为了就是不做ppt。有谁这个时候不忙阿？她妈的。我的照片也还没拍好不好。而且，我敢保证我比你忙更多更多。而且，你做的没有很好。不做也罢。

如果看到想来和我算账吵架那就省省吧。这是我的博客。我爱写什么就写什么。

都是一群借口多多的小人。有种想打小人的冲动。

我想杀人阿！！！

2009-07-17T01:59:00.002+08:00

Hang in there man. It will all be over, assignments projects and everything. But the worst has yet to come. Exams. I really don't know what to expect. The teacher's quite bias. She doesn't care, she only cares about her group of people which is like only 3. Whatever shit i asked her she doesn't enetertain. And she's irresponsible. Called me to do this and that but don't put me in charge. I really dunno what she wants. And I still love ray more.

only two examinable modules. but, i don't think i will do well. =( doesn't understand a single shit. at least ray's i can study and ask him about it. at least he cares. but the other. i lost hope in her and her module. I can't write as well as last time. it's not that natural anymore. ideas doesn't flow out as easily like they use to.

endless assignments or should i say projects. when one is about to end, a few more comes up. i just cleared my social psy today and there's still like 4 more to go. and it doesn't help when you group with the last minute people. i mean super last minute. project's due tml and we start on it today expecting to do well. wow. but i am quite a last minute person too.

wed was business continuity day. no sch. thurs, i ponned to do hw. but i missed a very impt lesson. regretted not going. because that cannot be studied on my own.

creativity part. me and my partner are having very different ideas. we always clash and yeah. you guessed it, i gave in to her. but i am still the one designing and she just find pictures. it's really a chore when you are designing something that you find ugly.

cca practices on mondays, weds, and thurs. korean on fridays. scedule is really packed and i got no time to do hw. i really wanna get the singing thing up and just quit this cca. i don't feel committed to it.

pardon me if i loose my temper when you talk to me on msn. esp when i am doing hw. so be considerate and ask if i am doing hw before you talk to me or something. cos i am rushing homework every other day. my busy status isn't there for show. it's real. so stop nudging me. too bad if i scolded you.

busy busy life leads to no time with friends. everyday it's just me and the computer. i miss birds.

presentation's over. got only a 13 but still happy about it. thought i would fail cos i screwed it with lots of english and stupid faces that i made. and the worst thing is, the teacher saw it.

going to have a busy weekend. no time for norman's hw. i dunno how am i going to finish it on time and still have to consider the opinions of another person. why can't it be just personal assignment. two evenings to be spent at mediacorp. sat going to st james power station then mediacorp. i don't even have time to catch harry potter.

anyway, happy birthday zandra. =)

2009-07-06T21:42:00.002+08:00

Brother gets a new slipper, $29.90. while i am still struggling with the 30 plus dollars left for this month. and trying so hard to save up for a pair of slippers too.

Brother gets new watch. $75. while i am still hanging on to my $15 dollar watch which stopped sometime ago. asked mum to help me change battery but until now she still hasn't. she said i should get a new one and a not so lousy one. i told her i don't even have enough money to eat. she say too bad.

well well well. i know you are bias but please stop those boasting in front of me. stop saying what you got for him. but instead look at what your daughter needs. since my slippers came apart that time, i didn't have the money to get a new pair until now.

and you, my dear brother, contain your excitement and stop trying to boast in front of me too.

2009-06-28T05:48:00.001+08:00

it's 6 am already. i've stayed up all night actually to do my hw. but ended up doing i don't know what also. this is crazy.

i am super super broke. and i still can't stop shopping. damn it.

one more day to sch reopen. i still haven study korean yet. omg.

i need to go chiong hw now. gahhhh.

2009-06-17T02:03:00.003+08:00

LOL. this was what I learnt on the last day of sch. hahahas. Just for laughs. lol lol.

currently going crazy about them. everyday thinking of clothes to design for them. everytime turn out to be different from what i was thinking, but still looks not bad. i went bankrupt cos of them. no hair cos no moneh to buy wool to make hair. lol.

F! help me design their clothes. hahahs.

2009-06-14T21:26:00.002+08:00

you got angry when i told people you played a part in writing the song, most of the lyrics was written by you. you asked me not to tell people that it was you who wrote the lyrics cause you thought it was lousy.

so why did you do that?

why did you, in front of the teacher and everyone, claim that both the song and the melody is written by you. why didn't you mention me and her? we did write it. and i wrote most of the melody part. you only did that one small line for the melody and actually i thought we could be away with that. it sounded really old. and it's not really in line with the other melody that i wrote. why did you say I, why didn't you say we? perhaps you didn't know that I hate people who claims credit for what they didn't do. yes and that's you. and so now, everyone is saying that WOW! you wrote the song. and not WOW! the three of you write the song. yayness. i didn't write the song. yayness. i cracked my brain for nothing. yayness. i slept late for nothing. yayness. i fell sick for nothing. really. yayness.

perhaps you were angry with me for suggesting that ending for the whole drama. but you all did agreeded to it. didn't you? and it wasn't suppose to be like that. you all didn't listen to instructions and cut the whole thingy short. so it's not really my fault right? What i did was PURELY SUGGESTING. and i was trying to help her, cos she wasn't really familiar with that line. and since you wrote that part of the melody perhaps you should just sing it.

what a childish boy you are.

2009-06-10T15:54:00.002+08:00

I thought I don't have to touch SS and History essay anymore.

But now, I am to write something like that, regarding media in CHINESE between 600 to 700 WORDS! damn it.

shit you humanities.

2009-06-10T09:01:00.001+08:00

Don't Talk if you can't talk. makes you look like an idiot.

2009-06-02T00:34:00.003+08:00

LOVE THIS

was about to update when i saw serene's msg that it's time for an update. hahahs. so qiao. lol.

i think my chinese is not improving at all. or rather, it has been going down. i have been using the com to type chinese so much that i've got a lot of words that i can't write out. wonder what's going to happen to me during a written exam. i don't think they will allow any dictionaries huh. lol

it's quite difficult to do work on the com, cos i will get distracted. by fb, or some online games and i will also move on to read some xiao shuo. which leaves me with a lot of work undone.

common test week next week. i got korean exam too. but but, catch no ball till now, i cannot even read it lo. walau. i think i need to go pia this weekend, since i don't have any ct.

logos and business cards are to be in by this friday, i am going crazy cos it would mean that, we have to use our own moneh to print out the stuff and i have to do it by thurs. need to go out to print. if i get home too late mama would scold again. sometimes i would rather stay overnight in sch, cos i will be in the sch till 8 plus 9 plus, addicted(yes addicted) to doing hw together with friends. cos at least it's productive. then when it's time to go, i will just go home and sleep. nothing done at home at all. so stupid.

wrote this song together with two other friends and me and another person will be singing it during our drama. ahhaha. first time singing in front of so many people. gahh. scared. and in the drama, i only got 3 lines, less than 20 words. heng arh. hahahs. other people have like chunks and chunks of paragraphs.

oh. and learning to being brought to a new lvl. we are currently using twitter and facebook for one of our modules. hahs. this means my blog and fb isn't really that personal anymore. unless i really bu yao lian.

and and. i am so heng la. i was suppose to hand in this gao for this webby by ytd. but then till 10pm i haven wrote anything yet. then then i go chiong out one in less than two hours. writing about bracelets. lol. feel so proud of myself now. i think i will post the link here when it's up on the web. hahas.

I took a photo with birds standing in a straight line on a lamp post. but then, there's only 7 birds. neh mind. i shall go be the lamp post.

BIRDIES I MISS YOU ALL!

2009-05-06T23:57:00.003+08:00

I think i am falling sick soon. took the lift twice only. ran for the bus, hugged my lappy while standing, feeling a bit sick already. walked up the hill cause i reached the opp bus stop at 9. and the ovb thingy started at 9. was very chuan. went somewhere and walked up the stairs, at lvl 2 was very chuan le. i think my body spoil. plus my kneecap very pain. bleh.

i am always feeling cold, have to wear jacket in every class except for chen ying's. but having sweaty palms when my hands are cold. i don't have this last time. and i pee and shit very frequently. lol.

this whole week having lack of sleep. have been waking up at 7, 7, 7, 7, 6. sleeping at abt 1 every morning. maybe it's because of the lack of sleep.

norman's hw is difficult. why is it illustrator and not photoshop. bleah. i got no inspiration for bob's hw. shallow field and some deeep field thingy. gahh. but these are my favorite lessons.

p/s: i think all my teachers are very cute. especially the males. o.O i got one who is very gentle. but too bad he's married hahahs.

p/s/s: i am thinking of how to salvage the situation cos i offended the teacher. gahhhhhh.

2009-05-06T23:08:00.002+08:00

GOD DAMMIT! where the hell is my syf cert? i can't find it. I need it for my interview tml la. walau. oh oh. i got into the scholarship interview. heh. quite scared cos i can't find my cert!!!!!!

and and. i think i offended the teacher. all i did was say out my thoughts abt a game that we played during lesson. the one that we played during choir. i said i mei gan jue and the game's too easy. he seems to be offended. shit. hopefully it wouldn't affect my marks.

okay. i am going to try to find my cert again. wish me luck. bye.

2009-04-29T16:17:00.002+08:00

sch started. I am starting to get use to sch. i love my classmates except for a few, which i believe the whole class hates.

can't believe i went to top one with ppl whom i merely known for just a week. and i sang out, loudly. lol. can't believe that i actually dare to talk in front of the whole class without my voice being soft, without having some "leng chang"in between. i think i became very li hai after i got into poly. I dare to sing in front of people(but not the whole class yet), i dare to talk normally, i mean although my heart keeps pumping very fast but still, i manage to hide that and present normally. I dare to talk to teacher, like shout out the answer without raising my hand. very li hai right. these are things that i don't do when i was in secondary sch.

hms camp was fun. had very good teammates. My group or is it house? or whatever it is, won in the end. hahaha. I love my group mates. although all of them speaks english. LOL.

my classmates are nice too. they love to watch dramas, love to sing, love chinese(duh), and i believe more than half of my classmates love xiao zhu. heh. we have so many similarities. heh. oh, and the people i went to top one with, can SING! I mean they can really sing very very well. heh. nice nice. and i found someone who can blend with me when singing duets. hahahs. love them.

oh and my teachers are nice too. I got really cool teachers. lol. 4 males and 2 females. there's two modules which is really like a sleeping session. and i have both the lessons on monday and weds. so both is really like a sleeping session. lol. but still i love all my teachers. heh.

had quite a bad start today. woke up at 8 when i had a lecture at 9. was suppose to wake up at 6.50. had a chance of not to be late one. but due to the stupid bus, i was actually late for forty minutes. so my attendance flew away. i chionged down at 8.20. waited till 8.55 for the bus.reached sch at 9.40. walau eh. and i end sch at 1 today. but have to wait till 8.30 for F's CCA.

Korean class is difficult. very very difficult. feel like giving up but i know i shouldn't. i am already dying at the normal stuff, the vowels and consonants. and i even had a quiz on it just on the second session. now i am going to have a second quiz on special double and final vowel or consonant i am not really sure. it's going to be a killer. plus it's damn hard to pronounce. everything sounds the same. even the teacher says so. and there's a written and speech exam at the end of everything. OMG. i think i am going to flunk it.

oh and anyway, i am blogging cos fiona asked me to. she says she's tired of seeing the hms camp thingy. anyway, teacher just said she likes my style of writing. lol. now i got motivation to keep writing.

gonna get busy. birdies outing how???

2009-04-12T23:58:00.002+08:00

tml's HMS's camp. bleah. can't sleep. but i need to wake up at 6.30 tml. getting excited as well as scared.

Need to bring my mac to the camp. getting a bit worried if it will be damaged. gahhh.

getting excited cos will be seeing yvonne after such a loooonng time.

sch's starting soon, and monday is a really heavy day. with lessons from 11 all the way to 5. with only a break at 1pm. and having korean lesson from 6 to 8. oh oh. I love my fridays. sch's only from 9 to 12. and my rest of the friday is free. unlike fiona who starts at 1pm in the afternoon. heh heh.

2009-04-12T23:48:00.002+08:00

Last day of work sucked. I cried, due to stress and getting scolding for something that is not my fault. Work is even more stressful cos I am responsible for Fiona, alvin and myself. Three person, instead of the usual one person which is only myself during sch. This is bad. Cos I get scolding for everything that they did wrongly.

Alice shouted at me for the first time in 2 months plus, because of something stupid. >.<

went back to taka on saturday. plus did some shopping. didn't really enjoyed myself cos F keeps going back to the same few shops(LOL). plus me and F have very different ideas on places that we wanted to go. bought this perfume for $48, F bought hers for $58. I wonder what my mama is going to say when she sees it. but I am enjoying it.

I miss work at taka.

and I really think that she fell in love with him.

2009-04-09T01:38:00.003+08:00

working morning shift in a few hours time.

feeling tired but don't wanna sleep.

having a choir outing tml. and tml's my last day of work.

I am not thinking straight.

my task is to get goldlion boy boy name.

i don't think i can.

i think I will miss taka a lot

I am too scared to go for the np camp.

2009-04-06T23:34:00.002+08:00

Day 4 was pretty bad with 26 cartons delivered to us. Was having a really bad mood, cause I was so stressed up over it. I finally understand how karren felt.

Day 5 was bad too. Up till now, today was the best but I had some miscommunication with Karren the day before when ordering stock thus, got a scolding =( but I had some fun with the price tag that aunty jockey needed help with. LOL

AND TO FIONA

It's all your fault! You got me addicted to Mac's Frappe that I think I will crave for it almost everyday. Heh. ;)

She's such a bitch

2009-04-03T23:33:00.002+08:00

Work is getting worse from day to day. If not for Fiona, I may not have tolerated till so long. I still have to tolerate till next thurs, and i am already trying very hard not to quarrel with her already.

The story is about karren who is JUST A PROMOTER but only has a few more months of experience then me.

Day 1: Taka Square

It was a bad day. But i forgot why.

Day 2: Counter at Taka itself.

Got scolded by the supervisor cos I went to eat at five instead of four o clock. I missed out the time cos I was doing stock, plus I wanna eat with Fiona who's downstairs. Okay this part is my fault, I admit it. But she scolded me for doing afternoon shift. wtf. My company ask me to do afternoon shift what. I am taking my salary from my company so of course I listen to my manager. Sandwiched between manager and supervisor again. Plus who doesn't love morning shifts? Called Karren to tell her abt the stock but she didn't answer her phone.

Day 3: Taka Square

Incident 1

Fiona wore slippers cos her little toe is injured. She wore her working shoes the last few days and she had to walk home barefooted from MRT cos her toe hurts. She had NO CHOICE.

Alvin wore canvas shoes, plus my manager says it's alright to wear.

Turned out that they can't stand at the counter at level 3 when they are wearing those shoes. But they are not suppose to stand at the counter at all. This drove KARREN crazy. She scolded me for not telling her that they are not wearing the right shoe.

WTF. Am I suppose to tell her what they ate or what they did today too? It's not my fault that they are not wearing the right shoe. I can't control them plus Fiona has no choice.

Evidence 1 that she's a bitch.

Incident 2

Stock came on day 2 while I was up at the counter. had to help her do. In the first place she already said that I was stupid and doesn't know how to do stock and the stock won't come when I am there at the counter. So why do I have to do the stock for her? I am already damn pissed by this.

Dug out a hole for the briefs in the store after like what seems like years and put the stock in. Arranged the socks nicely for her in the drawer and the bin. There goes two cartons and the last is inner wear which has the wrong price tag and I changed everything in the carton.

She msged me to ask if stock came. Called her, wanting to tell her that it came plus I left a carton for her to do(since she's the full time there and she gets all the commission). She replied me after I called her. It's obvious that she didn't wanna pick up her phone.

TODAY, told her what stock came and showed her where I left it in the storeroom. Got a scolding cos the stocks that came are not correct. But how the hell am I suppose to know what stocks she ordered. I can't check it against the stuff that came what since I don't know. So IT'S MY FAULT AGAIN FOR NOT TELLING HER THAT THE STOCKS ARE WRONG COS SHE DIDN'T PICK UP HER PHONE.

Evidence 2 that she's a bitch.

Incident 3

Shouted that me across the bins for something that is not even wrong. plus she should in front of customers. What kind of service attitude is this. one word: LOUSY

She asked me why I placed the small size right in front when it's actually correct to place like that according to the manager. Shouted across just for this type of minor thingy. =.= It's obvious that she's out to make me embarrassed.

Evidence 3 that she's a bitch.

Incident 4

She said that she can't see Fiona and me doing any work when we are actually running around like crazy serving customers. That was why the place ended up being so messy and she didn't even help. =.=

Scolded me for standing too close to Fiona WHEN WE ARE ACTUALLY SERVING CUSTOMERS. it means that if 2 customers is side by side I will have to let Fiona serve both of them if not I will be standing too close to Fiona. WTH.

Evidence 4 that she's a bitch.

PLUS SHE'S THE ONE GETTING ALL THE COMMISSION WHEN WE ARE WORKING SO HARD FOR HER.

In conclusion, Karren is such a bitch. Don't you agree?

2009-03-30T19:56:00.003+08:00

Went to the dentist today! Had 3 decayed tooth. heh. and it was 35 per tooth! OMG. gahh. wasted my off day at the dentist today.

My mother was being soooooo nice that she allowed someone who came later than us to go in first. wtf. they didn't have a appointment, so its their fault. i spent 3 hrs at the dentist la. when i was inside the room for less han half and hour. stupid.

anyway, birdies, I NEED YOUR PICTURES! send me your pic! heh. it's for a photo frame.

2009-03-26T00:25:00.002+08:00

I feel like such an asshole now.

Is this all I've learnt from work? , hurting people, pretending not to care just to protect myself.

I am sure this change came about because i need to defend myself from that backstabber. I thought I would become more mature and not even more childish once I gone out to work.

Damn I need to change, if not all of them will leave me sooner or later.

2009-03-25T00:24:00.004+08:00

gahh. it has been long since I blogged. waiting for sims2 to finish downloading. I've got nothing to do right now, so here i am blogging. seriously I don't know why i lost the sense of blogging right after i finished my blogskin. weird huh.

and I can't upload photos cause I can't find the cd to install the phone programme. anyway, i got my macbook already and a nice lappy sleeve. I am still unhappy that I got a aluminum one that can get scratched easily instead of a plastic white one. i wanna get the white plastic cover for my macbook.

anyway, money's such as sensitive issue. everyone thinks that i am earning big bucks just because i have a stable job(it's not so stable after all). and so they ask me to treat them whenever i go out with them and start lending money from me. it's not that i don't want to treat or lend but i am also on a tight budget. i am starting to pay for everything myself, food and clothes. luckily not the transport part, if not i will die but i do so sometimes if i take that private bus to work. two dollars gone just like that. and i ended up with lesser then what i had in my bank acc before i started work cause of the macbook. so please please those who owe me money please return me asap and stop asking me to treat la. it's getting sooo irritating that i wanna whack people.

p/s: if one is so hard up for money, work for goodness sake!

p/s/s: I love my macbook

p/s/s/s: i am going to be a hardcore and work my ass off.

2009-03-11T01:19:00.003+08:00

I just feeling a little lousy after seeing everything. i guess i am really deprive of fun. gahhh. ignore me.

I WANNA CRY!

I really need a walk. I am going to take a walk tml, i swear, to make myself happier.

2009-03-11T01:12:00.000+08:00

你们全部都是假的。我已经不敢相信，我只相信我自己所看到的。

2009-03-11T00:05:00.004+08:00

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I missed out on all the outings and meet ups because of work. They didn't bother to call me because they thought I got work.

They went back to school without me, went on outings without me. I am so so so sad.

they never knew how much I miss and long to see them . =(

should i be angry with myself for being a workaholic or should i be angry with them for not calling me along? i really do not know. ahhhhhhhhh.

I guess i am really missing out on all the fun and i think no one remembers me anymore.

2009-02-11T01:13:00.002+08:00

在 taka 工作后，终于开始对它有一点感情，并慢慢地爱上它。
为什么要在这个时候调走我？！
虽然只隔着几栋大楼，但工作环境有很大的区别。

救命啊，要我怎么在重新适应一个新的环境？真的好难啊。

Nway's Last Day

2009-02-02T00:11:00.000+08:00

Bahh. today was nway's last day. boo hoo. okay shall update another time. I need to sleep le. working morning shift tml cos I wanna watch tv. and I am damn tired after taking stocks today.

6G outing '09

2009-02-02T00:05:00.000+08:00

These are all the pictures I have with me. heh. still waiting for the others. shall put in captions next time.

My Beaded Works

2009-02-01T23:58:00.002+08:00

I need more white beads to continue beading other sanrio characters. wonder why they created most of the characters are in white. diaso doesn't have white beads anymore. need to go down to chinatown and buy one big pack of beads on my off day. which is next thurs. having beading withdrawal right now. lol.

I don't know what's the name, but I am in love with it. yay!

This is the bracelet that I did for jolene's birthday present. heh. save money plus it's unique.
Did a blue one for myself too. hahas.

there's two more braclets that I did. and a pair of earrings too. but I don't have pictures of it. my phone is out of memory! gahhh.

My First Job

2009-02-01T00:46:00.004+08:00

My first job was at eunos, a small warehouse. After a long time from stopping blogging, I feel that i am typing a little weirdly, thus I shall let the pictures do the talking. lol.

My best friend at work, serves my butt. heh. I sit on it everyday. lol.

Another great friend of mine. hahas. there's no air con there.

A view of my whole workplace.

My proud creations. heh.

Another one of my proud creation.

Some pictures taken with the people working there.

Worked at this warehouse for 1 whole month. And it's located at eunos. OMG. damn far away. travelling time to and fro is abt 3 hours.

Christmas Presents

2009-02-01T00:30:00.004+08:00

This is the beaded christmas tree that I did. Heh.Was out of money. And doing this was somewhat cheap. So I just 突发奇想 and designed the tree on my own. Took me 1 whole hour to design it and about 2 and a half days to finish about 22. hahas. Pictures ain't very clear but it's the best that I can get out of my phone. LOL.

2009-01-17T19:58:00.003+08:00

gahhhhhhhhh! I am sooo angry.

That teacher asked me and zandra to drop CH before O lvls. but but but, we didn't and i got B3 and zandra got A2. Apparently, she looked down on us and suaned us until we cannot take it then psyco us to drop. but luckily it didn't work. I so so glad that i didn't drop the subject.

and and, the most guo fen thing is she asked my brother how did i do for CH IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE CLASS. bloody hell. It's not like she doesn't know. she should know all our grades since she's my subject teacher.

for once, i am so glad that my brother is a racist. hahahas.

I am not saying that she's bad but she's just damn bias. I have to say that she's one of the best CH teacher around in school.

anyway, good luck to those who got her as your subject teacher.

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I just spent around 15 dollars on beads and tools. going to try making a braclet later. I am so into beading nowaways. i am so lazy to take pictures of my works. plus i still need to photoshop it. =))

2009-01-16T17:49:00.002+08:00

i am finally posting again today. hahas. have been too lazy to blog.

so here's my results
English: B3
Maths: A2
A maths: A2
Chem: B3
Physics: B3
Geography: A1
CH: B3
Chinese: A1
Oral: Dist

L1R5: 12 L1R4: 9

I am not happy about my results, but I am not sad either. hahas. mixed feelings.
put chinese media and communication as my first choice. hopefully i can get in.

into beading nowadays. made two braclets and a lot of christmas trees. hahas. pictures will be up one day. lol. i dunno when. i need more inspiration for beading!

anyway, choir farewell is tml. should i go? or should i go to work and earn my 50 bucks? ahhhh.

2009-01-04T23:47:00.002+08:00

okay. my blogskin is finally up and done. i am still not very satisfied with it. but it's still nicer then the previous one.

had fever today. which was very bad. i am not even typing correctly now. lol.

2009-01-03T23:18:00.002+08:00

I TOTALLY HATE MY BLOGSKIN! i've decided, I wanna make my own blogskin. But I dunno if it will turn out to be nice, since I don't have much sense in designing and I have not touched HTML for soo long.

Anyway, I am sick. down with a flu and probably a sore throat tml morning when I wake up. I still have to work tml. =(

Went to school on the 2nd. talked to phoony and mrs tan, smiled to mr lim. lol. miss him calling me BOH jia min. hahas. but i didn't see my gan pa pa. num mind. num mind num mind. =x

after that went to bugis. serene anne and zandra finally met zach. and zach finally met them. lol. went to haji lane and blowed some bubble thingy.

went to just asia and then arcade!!!

okay. i shall go look for some inspiration for my blogskin. give me ideas on my tagbaord too( if anyone actually reads this)

oh. and if anyone sees anne, eunice or serene, kindly tape up their mouths to prevent them from laughing the teo chew laughter.

2008-12-28T00:41:00.002+08:00

it's almost 1 in the mroning and guess what am I doing. i am actually reading Mr leong's notes and cracking my brain for this a math question. I think I gave it all back to the teachers. boo. that explains why i am taking so long. and also, i am blasting music just to keep myself awake. haha.

2008-12-20T00:18:00.002+08:00

went swimming at mabel's house plus a bbq. heh. nice nice. but i am feeling itchy all over.

i finally found out why people are so crazy over F4 that time. hahas.
oh. and my bro has a $109.95 birthday present! so jealous.
coffee session with char tml. so excited. heh.

2008-12-19T13:29:00.002+08:00

我奉劝你，不，我慎重的警告你,不要再把自己的快乐建立在别人的痛苦上.

我想我这样写也没有用，因为你不会看懂我在写什么

去你的，你这个死丫头!

2008-12-13T21:27:00.002+08:00

i am sooo bored. just finish eating a crabby dinner. yeah. i had crabs for dinner. battled them for 2 whole hour and my fingers are sore. all because i am unwilling to bite the shell. so i ended up using a chopstick and my fingers.

my blog is like half dead. but it's not that i don't want to blog, it's becuase i got nth to blog about. I am stuck at home everyday cos there's some money issues at home, which means i can't go shopping. my father have asked to be put on the retrench list so i guess he will get retrench next week. he actually went to his boss and told him that. lol.

oh. and anyway, i doubt anyone reads my blog too. hahas. currently, i have watched 23 taiwanese dramas and counting. see i am too bored. and i finish one drama in about 2 and a half days.

2008-12-05T16:15:00.003+08:00

lol. i just found out something. heh. i will be working at taka from 26 dec to 11 jan, selling curtains, towels, etc... and the worst thing is i am working with my mama.

but but, i just found out that Li Ying, Adeline, Jolene, Esther, Serene, Anne, Fiona, Bibian, Kong Yong, Hong Hwee, Zheng Wei, Zhi Yang, Benjamin, Jun bing all working there. heh. the guys will be working from 26 dec to 11 jan but the girls will be working from the 8 to 24. So I will get to see more of the guys then the girls. =( but they selling different stuff la. they selling food. if its a atrium job then i think we will be quite close ba and i confirm will see them cos my mama is very interested in food. heh.

okay. this is so exciting. go taka can see 4/2 people everywhere.

2008-11-26T10:49:00.000+08:00

CSS Prom 08

2008-11-25T11:04:00.002+08:00

Photobucket Album

Shall do a proper update later. anyway, prom night was BORING...

Prom Night

2008-11-23T10:53:00.001+08:00

heh. It's tonight. getting pretty excited about it. Having breakfast right now. Going to westmall to buy shoes later. zzzzzzz. yeah. I know its so last minute. I wanna see what suzie wear. hahah

2008-11-22T20:14:00.002+08:00

Currently messaging a 10 year old it. yeah. I don't even know if it is a female or a male. It messaged me, turned out to be a wrong number. but it told me that he/she is 10 years old from greenwood. hahas.

Have been feeling funny lately. I shit at the wrong times and several times a day, only when I am outside. Nothing happens to me at home. Hopefully this wouldn't happen to me on prom night. Argh. Also, I feel very very tired. But I've got no idea why. When i try to sleep, I will be wide awake again. And the cycle continues. This is bad.

Went out for almost everyday this week.
Monday & Tuesday: Prom shopping at Far East & Bugis
Wednesday: birdies and xu hui came over to my house for a movie. A farewell session for xh. they brought my late birthday present and cake also.
Thursday: Prom shopping at Far East with Dolly and her mum.
Friday: Help zandra with her farewell gift.
Saturday: Packed my room
Sunday: PROM NIGHT

found a lot of hello kitty stuff in my room. i wasn't even a hello kitty fan back then. I wonder how these stuff ended up in my room. hahs. gonna throw away a lot of stuff in my room and prepare for a green room!

2008-11-17T21:57:00.001+08:00

OMG OMG. I found the dress that I want. heh. It's pink and black. yeah. pink. I can't believe it too. pretty pretty. hahas.

found a pair of heels. pink and gold. but i am not sure about the pricing yet. going to check tml.

haha. I am going to start wearing dresses i think.

and and, i am going to paint my room GREEN!

Outing with choir peeps

2008-11-16T21:45:00.005+08:00

I am really tempted to just give the link to charmaine's blog and type there, click here for the outing. LOL. I am just too lazy. haha.

While waiting for eunice(she was late as usual), shawn was bored and took photos with char's cam.

Okay. I need to say this if not eunice will whack me. I left my house at 9, when we are suppose to meet at 9. =x so i was late too. heh. but i was the forth to arrive and the first girl to arrive. so its not too bad right. I woke up at 8.45 that morning. You can see how fast am I. Char arrived next, followed by yossi and lastly eunice.

and and she was still eating that packet of potato chips while walking to mac when every single one of us are waiting for her to order our breakfast >.<

Char baked some heart shaped cookies. i was the first one to try. I am adventurous! heh.

Look at shawn's face and yee liang's.

Eunice finally arrived and we left two cookies for her.

Next stop was char's princess room. It's really great for sleepovers. but too bad that her mum doesn't allow. and i love her white closet. Ordered pizza for lunch. Just 4 dollars per person. heh. so cheap. Zi Yi had the slice with a whole packet of cheese on it. That's because he dump the whole packet of cheese on the slice of pizza when he was trying to spread it out. hah. Chatted with them for two whole hours at the living room. How nice.

Went to IMM for dinner after that. Camwhore with char for a little while =) sat in a circle and chatted with them about our next outing and so on while listening to some kiddy stuff that was happening behind me.
there you go. zi yi, my blog isn't dead anymore!

2008-11-12T21:35:00.002+08:00

O level is over O level is over O level is OVER!

but the thing is, I am not happy. damn it. I wanna WORK! I need the money la. zzz.

god. someone make me happy larh. so xin ku you know. and i am loss for things to do. have been thinking of all the things i could do during the exams/before the exam. i thought it was a lot and i wouldn't have the time to work or sth. end up i am now doing nothing but watching tv and playing com.

and chong wee or ah wee is working tml. DAMN IT!!!! under popular somemore. and he working with smart ass la. nan yang girls. he seems pretty excited abt it. heh.

I AM JEALOUS! damn it damn it. I guess I will end up working in popular. or maybe selling handbags, books, uniform or sth? dunno larh. zzz.

2008-11-08T21:04:00.002+08:00

This was the bag I was talking about in my previous post. I didn't get it. I WAS CHEATED BY A LOUSY SIGN IN THE SHOP! dman damn damn.

I take back my words on my previous post.I WANT THIS BAG!
Is there anyone who is nice enough to sponser me this or sponser part of it? It's $119. yeah. 119. damn it.

2008-11-08T11:24:00.002+08:00

went badminton ytd. heh. fun fun fun. but was having cramps though. got tired so fast. zzzzzzz. fiona was from badminton during her primary school days. heh. nice playing with her. and i thought eunice improved.

after that went to beauty world with eunice, to buy the crochet needle and yarn. i wanted to do then she wanted to do also. hmph >.<

saw this red puma bag. its nice but i don't really like it. i am quite lazy to go out and buy the bag actually but the promotion ends at this sunday. and it so ex. even though its not my money but i feel the pinch too. so i think i wouldn't be buying that puma bag. i want the nike bag that i saw that time. but i can't remember how much it is.

and that piggy(eunice) is still sleeping. i got no lunch la cos i am suppose to go out with her to see the bag. but then she's still sleeping. then now my timings all wrong. zzz. feeling so irritated for no reason. wtf

2008-11-05T18:07:00.002+08:00

Quizzes that I grabbed from Glad.

Quiz 1

1. Do you have secrets?
Yeah, of course

2. Would u fall in love with someone younger than u?
Nope.

3. Do u enjoy gg to sch?
Sometimes. Actually most of a time. But no I am not a nerd.

4. What would u do with a billion dollars?
TRAVEL AROUND THE WORLD!

5. Will u fall in love with ur best friend?
Nope. Unless my best friend is a guy.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Both are equallly blessed.

7. List out ur 15 fave songs.
Ok. Here goes:
1. 安静了 - S.H.E
2. 画心 (主题曲) - 张靓颖
3. 屋顶
4. 半情歌 - 元若蓝
5. 我的快乐 - 锦绣二重唱
6. 来不及 - Hebe
7. 背影 - 林宥嘉

8. 第九夜

9.Scars (Stronger For Life)

10.Anywhere But Here

11.让时间开口

12.木脑壳

13.永不消失的彩虹 - 卓文萱

14.心动

15.听海

8. If the person u secretly likes is attached, what would u do?
nothing

9. Is there anything that makes u very happy?
Writing

10. What makes u angry?
some attitudes

11. What would u see urself in 10 yr's time?
er.. i wanna surprise myself. haven give much though about it yet.

12. Who is currently the most important person to u?
ME and probably my friends.

13. What is the most important thing in ur life?
The ability and having an avenue to express my emotions

14. Would u rather be single but rich or married but poor.
whichever, as long as i am happy.

15. What is ur favourite colour?
Green, Orange, Brown, Yellow, Red, White and perhaps pink.

16. Would u give all in a relationship?
Nope.

17. If u fall in love with two ppl simultaneously, who would u pick?
it wouldn't happen. but if it does, it will be the one that i feel happier with.

18. Would u forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done?
NO WAY.

19. What do u want to tell the person u like?
I love you. LOL.

20. What type of person would u fall in love with?
anyone who is mature and does not cheats.

CHILDISH PEOPLE ARE DISGUSTING.

Name 5 ppl to do this quiz:
anne(she will take it even if i don't ask her to)

serene

eunice

zandra

jo( since i saw her at the bus stop that day)

Quiz 2

Put an "x" if you have done so/ it's true :D
Put a "/" if you have somehow done so/ it's somehow true.

SCHOOL LIFE CONFESSIONS
[x] Talked back to a teacher
[x ] Been kicked out of class
[ ] Worn pyjamas to school
[x] Had your tooth fall out at school
[/] Gotten lost in your school
[x] Broken the dress code in school
[x] Completely failed a test
[/] Left class without asking
[/] Missed a whole week of school
[x] Thrown up in school
[/] Been beat up at school

HOME LIFE CONFESSIONS
[x] Argue with your parents a lot
[ ] Argue with your brother(s)
[ ] Argue with your sister(s) a lot
[x] Have your own room
[/] Do your own laundry
[ ] Cook dinner once in a while
[ ] Are loud and obnoxious at home
[ ] Wear pyjamas when you are not going anywhere
[ ] You sleep in very long
[x] All you do is watch television
[ ] Your parents are divorced
[/] Your family makes you cry alot
[ ] One or both of your grandparents live with you
[/] You cant stand being with your parents

FRIEND CONFESSIONS
[ ] You currently dislike one or more of your friends
[ ] You are jealous of one or more of your friends
[ ] You have known a friend your whole life
[/] Your friends are all taller than you
[/] You have been ditched by a friend
[x] You have memorized a friend's phone number
[x] You have lost/forgotten a friend's phone number
[/] You have been to all of your friends' houses
[x] You love most all of your friends

HABIT CONFESSIONS
[ ] You bite your nails
[ ] You have an odd obsession with knives
[ ] You cannot sleep with the door closed
[x] You cannot sleep with the door open
[x] There is at least one sound you cannot stand
[ ] You write stories about mad cannibalistic serial killers
[x] You are good at telling lies

LOVE CONFESSIONS
[ ] You currently like someone
[ ] You want to kill one of your exes
[x] You can stay committed for an unusually long time
[ ] You get bored of your crush/bf/gf easily
[ ] A crush/bf/gf has called you a bitch before
[ ] A crush/bf/gf has called you self-centered before

PERSONAL OPINION CONFESSIONS
[ ] You hate George Bush
[x] Abortion is horrible and should be illegal
[x] Gay marriage is fine to you
[x] Boys make better friends than girls do
[x] The beach is an excellent place for a date
[ ] Pink is an ugly color
[x] Needles aren’t so horrible
[ ]Human flesh tastes like fine aged veal

EVER CONFESSIONS
[x] Fallen down the stairs[on a non moving bus and sprained my ankle =.=]
[x] Someone has tied your shoelaces together[eunice does that ALL the time]
[ ] Had a nail fall off
[ ] Captured, Manipulated, or Destroyed a soul by Ars Falcis
[ ] Had surgery
[ ] Slapped someone across the face
[ /] Killed someone
[ ] Someone has called you a tease
[ ] You have been to Europe
[ ] You have worn something inside out for a whole day

THE SELF
[01] Name: Jia Min
[02] Nickname: Ah boh, min min, bruised, fried bread, connie boh.
[03] Married: No
[04] Zodiac Sign: Libra
[05] Gender: Female
[06] Age: 16.
[07] High School: CSS

[08] College: -
[09] Height: 156cm
[10] Weight: 47kg.
[11] Do you like yourself: of course.
[12] Piercings: Left: 1, Right:1.
[13] Right or left: ? Right
[14] Are you a freak: Maybe
[15] Hair: Dark Brown
[16] Skin: Beige.
[17] Allergic: NOTHING!
[18] What are you doing now: Multitasking, eating and doing this quiz.
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: Studying Human GEOG.
[20] What will you do 10 years later: Something that I love.

THE FAMILY
[21] Live with mother/father/parents: mother and father

[22] Siblings (including you): 2

THE LOVE
[26] You found your another half: Nope.
[27] If yes, who is he/she:
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: eh? i dunno.
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: ZERO.
[30] Ever woo boy/girl: nah.

[31] Anyone woo you before: yea.
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: not applicable.
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done:not applicable

[34] Ever argue with your other half: not applicable
[35] You with your other half since: 1000 years ago.
[36] Are you straight/Lesbo: Straight.
[37] Reasons you love your other half: eh?
[38] You and your other half in which stage: bleah.
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: i am bored.
[40] The enemy you hate the most (1 only): no enemy.
[41] Your most beautiful girlfriend: the birdies.
[42] Your most handsome guy friend: actually almost all the guys in 4/2
[43] The kind of girl you dislike the most: barbie doll girls.
[44] The kind of boy you dislike the most: childish guys
[45] You fall in love with your close friend before: nope.
[46] Your best friend is your ex-lover: nope.
[47] If your friend backstabs you: stab them right in their face.

[48] If your friend betray you: betray it too.
[49] If your friend woo your lover: i don't care.
[50] If your friend fall in love with you: i don't care too.

[51] If you fall in love with your best friend: it wouldn't happpen.

THE STUDIES
[52] Are you a good student: yeah. i guess so. in normal school times. not during results taking. haha.
[53] You always done your homeworks/assignments: yeah.
[54] The teacher/tutor you love the most: only chinese teachers i guess. i have some kind of connections with them.
[55] Always late to school/college: Not even once.
[56] You love your seniors: yeah.
[57] Senior who you love the most: amanda and ming.
[58] Your classmates good/bad: they are damn good.
[59] Excellent result classmate: Alvin/ Xu Hui
[60] Laziest classmate: SQ007
[61] Smart people: People who don't have to study and will get good results.
[62] Stupid people: I don't believe in that.
[63] Good looking people: Pretty Heart
[64] Ugly people: People who are ugly at heart.
[65] Funny people: SQ007 typical example.
[66] Cute people: my obsession with ah peks. LOL.
[67] Bad people: they will be dead sooner or later.
[68] Honest people: no such thing. everyone has lied at least once.
[69] Acting people: they suck.
[70] What kind of person are you?: I don't know actually.

THE PREFER
[71] Lip or eyes: Both.

[72] Hugs or kisses: Hugs.

[73] Shorter or taller: Taller.
[74] Hesitant or spontaneous: Spontaneous.
[75] Nice stomach or nice arms: Both.
[76] Listener or talker: Both.
[77] Romantic or rich: Romantic.
[78] Good husband or good father: Both.

THE FUTURE
[79] Age to get marry: 23, 26? I am going to stay single if i don't get married by 30. hah.
[80] Numbers of kid(s): 2 or 4.
[81] Career: Something to do with writing or tourism.

[82] Salary: 3k is enough.
[83] Retirement age: as old as possible.
[84] Properties value: i don't know.
[85] Wishes: Happiness for everyone.

THE VICTIMS
anne.
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Quiz 4

1. How do you think yourself as a person ?
i think a lot. too much sometimes. knowing things that i do not want to know.

analyse a lot too.

2. Who is the latest person that broke your heart ?
my friend

3. What's in your pocket right now ?
no pockets FBT.

4. What kind of music that suits you the most ?
chinese pop.

5. What are you most likely to complain about ?
money and favourtism

6. Pick six words to describe yourself ?
Loud, Happy, Short, Hyper, Green, Yellow? LOL

7. What is your greatest fear at the moment ?
Not getting the marks I want for my Os and insects.

8. What song are you listening to now ?
Some kid singing on the tv.

9. What are you planning to do in the next three years ?
study, write, earn money.

10. When did the last time you feel lonely and why ?
my best companion is music =)

11. Are you missing someone ?
yeah. my gan pa pa!

12. Do you think that people around you really know what you're about ?
No.

13. What is it that they don't know about you ?
almost everything.

14. Do you fall in love or get lust easily ?
don't think so.

15. Have any crush right now ?
Nope.

16. What do you hate most about watching TV nowadays ?
lousy singapore shows.

17. Are you a family person ?
Nah.

18. Who is your hero ?
music!

19. Name three people who are the closest to you right now ?
my brother and myself.

20. What's your best friend like ?
she's a girl?

21. Is love a complicated issue in your life ?
nope.

22. Who do you trust the most in life ?
myself.

23. What do you see yourself as in the next 6 months ?
working hard for what i want.

24. Do you believe in zodiac sign and astrology ?
yeah.

25. Can you see yourself living a married life ?
i think so.

*****

LAST

1. friend you saw:
none.

2. Person you Talked to on the phone:
xu hui =x

3. Text:
zandra

TODAY

1. Wearing Today:
some green hang ten tee and black fbt.

2. Better than yesterday?:
yea. ATTEMPTED TO STUDY. but nothing went in.

TOMMORROW

1. Is:
thurs

2. Got any plans:
Study for geog and take the exam, clear my room and PLAY!

3. Dislikes about tomorrow:
the human geog paper is going to break my hands.

FAVORITE

1. Number:
6.

2. favourite color(s):
Green, Orange, Brown, Yellow, Red, White and perhaps pink.

3. Season:
autumn

CURRENTLY

1. Missing someone:
yea. my gan pa pa!

2. Mood :
Tired and guilty and irritated

Q's and A's

Q: First thing you did this morning
A: read the embalmer.

Q: Last thing you ate
A: tiramisu doughnut

Q: Do you have anything bothering you ?
A: not studying for geog.

Q: What's annoying you right now ?
A: my mother's voice.

Q: What's the last movie you saw ?
A: Painted Skin

Q: Do you believe in long distance relationships ?
A: Yeah.

Q: Is there anyone you like or love and vice versa but can't have relationship with ?
A: Yeah.

Q: What was, is the reason behind it ?
A: this is funny. i am not going to say it. lol.

Q: Are you both still, are friends ?
A: lol. he don't know me. hah

Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now ?
A: Yupp.

Q: Do you think that a person is thinking of you too ?
A: nah.

Q: Where is the last place you went ?
A: SCHOOL for o level exam. damn

Q: Do you look more like your mom or dad ?
A: Dad.

Q: Do you have any pets ?
A: No.

Q: Do you smile often ?
A: i think so.

Q: Do you wish upon stars ?
A: Yeah.

Q: Are you a friendly person ?
A: think so.

Q: Who's bed did you sleep in last night ?
A: Mine.

Q: What color shirt are you wearing ?
A: orange.

Q: What were you doing at 12 last night ?
A: photoshopping.

Q: Do you have more guy or girl friends ?
A: Girl friends.

Q: When was the last time you cried ?
A: when the prelim 1 results were out.

Q: Do you get angry easily ?
A: nope.

Q: What was your last thought before you went to sleep last night ?
A: faster sleep then can study geog tml. =.=

Q: Take any vitamins ?
A: nope.

Q: What are you about to do ?
A: slap my mum and ask her to shut up. nah. i am going to blast some music and play some games.

Q: Do you ever check your phone waiting for someone to call ?
A: No.

Q: Who was the last to fill this survey ?
A: glad.

Q: Do you like the person ?
A: yeah. she was my best friend during primary school.

Q: Rate life as of right now 1-10
A: 3. yay. i failed my life ask well.

********

Q & N :

This year...
have you had any relationships?
-- yea. friendship with my girlfriends.

have you had your birthday?
-- Yea. i even bought a present for myself =D

been to church ?
-- Yea. twice i think.

cried yet ?
-- yea.

been on a diet ?
-- nah. i don't like to starve myself. it sucks.

pulled an all nighter ?
-- almost. stayed up till 4 to study for a geog exam. woke up at 6. wondering if i should do that tonight.

drank starbucks ?
-- nope.

went shopping ?
-- Yea.

went camping ?
-- study camp. counted?

bought something for over $100 ?
-- nah.

met someone special ?
-- yea.

been out of state ?
-- a little.

gone snowboarding ?
-- Nope

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE :
have you ever been in love ?
-- Nope.

do you believe in love ?
-- Yah.

why did your last relationship fail ?
-- N/A

have you ever had your heart broken ?
-- yea

have you ever broken someone's heart ?
-- hopefully not.

have you fallen for your bestfriend ?
-- Nope.

have you ever loved someone but never told him / her ?
-- yea.

are you afraid of commitment ?
-- Nope

would you ever date one of your exes ?
-- nah. don't think i will do this type of thing.

have you had more than 5 different serious relationships ?
-- Nah.

5 EMOTIONS :
are you missing someone right now ?
-- Yes. my gan pa pa. how many times must i repeat myself. grr.

are you happy ?
-- Nope.

are you eating anything ?
-- Nahh.

d0 you like someone right now ?
-- Yepp.
***
your name plus ' lyn '.
-- Jiaminlyn

two feelings at the moment ?
-- bored. irritated by my mother's shouting(talking)

what are you listening to right now ?
-- 彩虹眼泪

a part of a song lyrics that's in your mind ?
--请不要放开我的双手不要缺席我的以后

请留给我慢慢消失的那一道彩虹

已经习惯你的双手牵着我的那种温柔只有你懂

我会流泪是因为最深处的感动

I love it.

your three plans for tomorrow ?
-- study geog. do geog. clear room. PLAY!

are you thinking of someone right now ?
-- YAHHH. my gan pa pa my gan pa pa my gan pa pa. satisfied???

are you single ?
-- yea.

say something to the person who posted this .
-- why is this so long, glad?

what do you want to do ?
--make my mum shut up.

say anything you like to whoever is reading your answers .
-- any ideas to make my mum stop shouting(talking)?

are you feeling hungry right now ?
-- Nope.

who do you miss right now ?
-- GAN PA PA. =.=

last friend you talked to online ?
-- zach

what do you like about last night ?
-- photoshopping

if you visit a farm , what would you like to see ?
-- ANIMALS AND VEGE!

when you were a kid , what did you want to be when you grew up ?
-- teacher

last gift ?
-- my self bought birthday present, DIY handicraft.

did you like it ?
-- yea of course! why else would i buy it?

do you play an instrument?
-- Recorder? lol. i have a keyboard though. haven touch it for a long time.

what song did you last hear ?
-- 爱情号码牌

person you hate most ?
-- none.

who makes you laugh the most ?
-- SQ007. i think she brightens up the boring class. hahas.

what makes you smile ?
-- Listening to nice songs, looking at beautiful creations.

who do you have a crush on ?
-- =D

in two words , explain what ended your last "relationship" ?
-- No Last relationship idiot.

what were you doing this morning at 8 a.m ?
-- reading the embalmer.

what were you doing 15 minutes ago ?
-- Doing this quiz.

are you any good at math ?
-- can be said as above average but not very good.

have you ever taken out a loan to pay for school ?
-- nah.

do you know the words to the song on your friendster profile ?
-- My friendster profile has NO songs. I dun even visit it.

last thing you received on email ?
-- Facebook updates?

do you ever leave messages on people's answering machines ?
-- Nah.

what bothers you right now ?
-- Tml's exam.

what is your favorite month of the year ?
-- November!

when was the first time you fell in love ?
-- 1000 years ago.

when was the last time you went out with your friends ?
-- can't remember it was too long ago for me to remember.

when was the last time you said " i love you " ?
-- haven said it yet.

when was the last time you read a book ?
-- 1 hour ago.

when was the last time you asked for help ?
-- I dun remember.

when was the last time you kissed your dad / mom ?
-- i don't think i ever did that.

do u easily get attracted to the opposite sex ?
-- Nope.

do you get jealous easily ?
-- Nope. There's nothing for me to be jealous about.

any people in love with u right now ?
-- hopefully not.

want to get married ?
-- Yup. I think.

are you serious when it comes to relationships ?
-- ya. if that guy is worth it.

are you afraid of commitments ?
-- Nope.

do actions speak louder than words ?
-- only sometimes.

how can you say that a person loves you ?
-- eh?

are you good in handling relationships ?
-- nah

willing to give everything ?
-- To who? Or what?

do you demand your love one to change into someone that pleases you ?
-- no way. i wouldn't do that. it's too cruel.

would you let go of someone you love ?
-- Unless I'm dying.

what is the major reason of a break up ?
-- When he don't love me anymore.

one thing you like about love ?
-- the process.

is your heart broken , beating , or taken ?
-- Beating. =.=

what happened last night ?
-- i discovered something new with photoshop. hah.

what is your greatest fear ?
-- INSECTS

what was the best thing that happened to you this week ?
-- finishing the ss exam.

what are you planning to do this weekend ?
-- do physics mcq and PLAY!

what can you promise to the one you love ?
-- Huh. How do i know? I'm not in a relationship yet.

what will you wish for if you have a genie ?
-- I just want to be happy.

who is the one you're thinking of right now ?
-- gan pa pa? LOL.

who do you run to when you're down ?
-- paper. i write them down.

who are the most influential people in your life right now ?
-- Friends.

who will you call / text later ?
- No one.